6 WEEKS..

Hey all...

Just nak share dengan u guys my first scan...
My pregnancy is already into six weeks and I am so happy...

Anyhow... itu je nak tulis for today...

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Early Saturday...

It's been a while since I wrote here.. bukan apa.. nothing wahhhh! happened yang boleh membuatkan saya untuk menulis. Ye lah.. takkan tiap hari nak tulis about me being pregnant kan? semacam tak best lah pulak.. anyhow.. i've been in bed for the past week. had a terrible flu and felt sick to the stomach. alasannya mudah...hormone berubah.. hahahaha... see.. again i'm writing about being pregnant...

anyways, elly suggested that i apply for the junior writer post at astro. hmmm... fikiran berkecamuk gak.. have been thinking about it but last-last i decided not to. I have been there. I mean working for a company as a scriptwriter. As a writer.. i feel the need to have the freedom to write what I want and how I want. Bukanlah nak kata my previous bosses tak memberikan kebebasan tapi .... tak cukup...saya ini sedikit susah menerima kritikan walaupun I will always listen to it tapi bila kerja jalan tapi mulut mengomel bukan-bukan.. macam tak best kan?

I feel I work better on my own time. Bila rasa nak tulis.. kita tulis. Bila rasa nak tido kita tido.. Senang gitu. But alhamdulillah... all my works selalunya on time. I'm good at meeting deadlines..

So.. Insya-Allah ..come new year.. I will again start my works yang dah lama terbengkalai. I will not give any excuses to myself anymore.. ( and yes! to u jugak elly ..hehehe... :P )

Well.. i got to go... got emails to check. n nak baca balik my script yang masih lagi di SCENE 53 tu..

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Friday

I am so stuck right now. I can't seem to write anything just yet. Gosh! Itu lah.. hari tu dah elok dapat my rhythm balik I stopped.. now I have to start all over again.. anyhow.. I am still just at home. Am not watching any movies yet today as I am actually a lil sleepy. ( Being pregnant is cool.. asik dapat tido.. *wink*)

Anyhow.. read Nadia's blog about her love life and all. I mean c'monlah. When someone throws you out of their life.Forget that person and when that person wants you back. Just shut the door in his face. He was never there for you why should you wanna go running up to him everytime he feels he wants you back? untuk apa ? Kepuasan diri? Apa yang you dapat? A lil something that he doesn't want to be part of but he still wants you over and over again? BULLSHIT lah!

I mean I went through that a long time ago. I threw him away and then I wanted him back but he refuse to give in. He even told me to move on because he doesn't want me anymore. Sedey. I know but I moved on because why I want to mengharapkan pada someone yang dah tak nak kat kita kan?

Look. Love is complicated. It is so very hard to understand tapi jangan lah main kan perasaan orang just because u want some time on ur own but at the same time u also want that person to hang on to u. Its cruel. You need your space but also need to wanted. STUPID!!!

Janganlah buat macam tu. U'll end up alone. Jangan jadi jahat lah.

Hmmm.... pada orang itu... Forget whatever happened. I know it was beautiful but u don't deserve her. She stood by you but what did you do to her when she needed you the most? You wrote her a bloody cheque and tell her to keep quiet? You are so not matured. Nope. Sooooo not matured...

Anyways.. I got to go.. Nak tido lah...

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Movies

In the course of two days, I have watched 4 movies. That is what I do all day being pregnant and all. I have my nap in the afternoon and I watch movies on dvd and I also cook and write a lil.

Movie #1 : Juno
A story of a 16 year old that got pregnant and be cool about it. She got pregnant by her bestfriend and decides to keep it and give it away for adoption. But the couple that was to take her baby has got some marital problems of their own but ends up taking the baby altogether. Its a good movie although all you 16 years old out there... make sure ur not pregnant at that age. In our culture its not acceptable. But seeong that kid pregnant makes me smile jugak... : )

Movie #2 : Wild Child
A cliche movie about a teen that is how should i put it..?? Rebelious? Well.. I'll put is as that lah. She was angry at her father for finding a "replacement" of her dead mom and her father got angry with her and sent her off to boarding school in England. While in England... she tried her very best to get expelled instead she found out that she likes being there and to make a story.. that school was the same school her mother went to as a teen.. ( what a coincidence eyh?) Anyhow.. this story is simple and also very same like the rest.. more or less like all the teen movies that stars Lindsay Lohan in her early years.

Movie #3 : Friends with money
A story about four girlfriends, Olivia, Jane, Fanny and Christine. All in their late thirties and trying to figure out their lifes. But mostly the story is more focused on Olivia who between the four of them is the most unlucky one. She was a teacher that quits her job and become a maid to support her life. All her other friends are sympathetic towards her but is not doing anything to actually help her as they themsleves have got their own problems. Anyhow.. the story was a lil slow and I actually slept through it the first time I watched it yesterday. In the end, Olivia found a man that like her but also super rich. and there you have people.. a happy ending with the end line is " Everybody has got problems too".

Movie #4: Get Smart
I watched this movie because I wan bored. Not actually my cup of tea but at least its better than James Bond ( no offence JB fans.. ). Its a light comedy thingy with all the secret agent crap. I watched it pun because Anne Hathaway is in it and I sooooo love her in "The Devil Wears Prada". Anyhow.... thats all I can say about it because I was watching it while eating Pizza and doing my work at the same time.

So there you have it. My so-called-movie-review. *LOL*...
Well.. I'd better go. Need to finish up my synopsis.

BTW: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TINI

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and so... I am positive...

hey people... just nak share with you guys.. I am pregnant..at first rasa macam tak percaya..
ye lah for the past few months evrytime buat pregnancy test je.. asik - asik satu line yang timbul.. kali ni dua line plak... so... anyhow, even after dah jumpa doctor pun still rasa tak percaya... so i took another test just to confirm it again that i am pregnant... and i am pregnant indeed... : )

now..i am so happy... congrats to all of you sebab lepas ni korang semua akan jadi auntys and uncles...

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merepek je...

gosh!! bosan giler duk umah tak buat apa... hari ni again i stayed at home tak ikut zull pergi location. bukan apa semalam ikut dia.. pastuh kena gastrik. sakit giler sampai takleh nak bangun...so hari ni zull tak bagi i ikut dia pergi location... huhuhuhuhuhu..

to elly... i bukan takot nak gi doctor tapi tak sukalah....agipon bukan sakit sangat... just tak sedap badan je.... *wink*

anyhow... duk umah memang bosan. petang tadi rokok dah habis. and my brother plak dah kuar gi KL so takde saper nak tolong amik... last-last i decided to keluar and jalan kaki to the shell station across the road semata - mata nak beli rokok... hahahha.... kena marah dengan zull.. dia cakap tak leh ke nak sabar sampai dia balik... i jawab lah... at least berjalan ni leh gak amik angin... kan?

hmmmm.... sekarang kepala otak tengah jam giler. Nak sambung my script tapi tak dapat - dapat lagi. ye lah dah lama tinggal kan.... but its okay.. dalam dua tiga hari ni .. insya-allah i will get back my rhythm untuk menulis....

well... i guess that's it for today. Laters.

monday

Hari ni tak ikut zull pergi location. penatlah dah dua minggu asik gi location takde masa nak bangun lambat.. so hari ni saya amik keputusan nak duk umah dengan alasan nak kemas rumah yang dah bersepah.. ye lah.. tiap hari kuar pagi balik malam... *sigh* but then bukan saya yang kemas pon.. panggil cleaner yang selalu cuci umah my mum datang...at least kemaslah rumah sikit.

petang tadi pergi mydin dengan my mum... beli barang rumah. ye lah... dapur dah kosong... jadi sebab dah ada stok barang.. malam ni boleh lah masak... *YAY*

anyhow.. bila dah duk sengsorang kat sini.. tetiba bosan plak.... tak tau nak buat apa dah.... forum dah baca.. nothing new...they all maseh lagi bercerita perihal itu lah.. saya ni jadi silent reader je.. ye lah mana tau nama naik... *wink* email pon semua dah dibalas... facebook pon dah update... so dah tak tau nak buat apa....

hmmm... maybe I will sambung my script lah malam ni... lagi sikit je Aku Bukan Sally tu nak habis... YES! I will do that... So peeps..until next time k...

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Sabtu-day

I am still kat location ni... hari ni shooting kat Shah Alam. Mulanya tak nak datang tapi pikir balik.. duk umah pon bosan so... datang lah jugak...anyhow.. tengah boring tunggu shooting..saya pun jalan - jalan kat dalam ofis TAS.. and guess what I found?? Posters for the drama yang I produced and wrote.. Wahhhh!!! Happy lah pulak... : )
Anyhow... here are the posters...


Peliknya Cinta is entirely mine. My idea, my script and I produced it for Mariana Hashim Production. tapi sayang.. tak pernah dapat tengok pasal.. terlepas. Copy of it pun takde.



Anoreksia pulak is the drama I produced masa dengan Mariana Hashim Production. It was my first project as a Line Producer.

And today... I am soooooo happy.... tak tau lah naper. but all I do is just stand in front of the posters and look at it.

Owh well... I guess itu je yang nak tulis... Laters k.

4 in the morning

penat.. baru balik dari shooting. and yes! i do have a life selain dapade mengadap internet je.. (if u get wat i mean lah )

anyhow... after much consideration... i have decided not to get involved. walaupun selama ni bukannya aku involved pun dalam hal tu kan... i am just a BFF.. ( like they say lah ) I am just stating my opinion on the matter.. ( my blog..sukatilah apa i nak tulis kan?? ) i mean benda ni dah jadi semakin berbelit. and i pun tak nak tambahkan kekusutan kepala otak ni.

proposal berlambak tak type lagi. accounts production nak kena jaga.. laki aku plak takleh nak gi location tu sengsorang.. aku nak kena ikut jugak. so tell me lah weyh!?!?! bila masanya aku nak menulis ni?!?!?! PENAT!!! but then... bak kata a friend of mine.. "complain dalam hati, jangan tunjuk kat mulut" ( or something like that lah... hahaha...)

Hmmm... beberapa citer dah terkeluar dalam kepala ni.. tinggal nak develop n type aja... dah lah tu.. adalah dalam 3-4 orang producer yang minta proposal.. dah tu nak ASAP plak tu.... itu yang pening tu.. nak plak drama series.. telemovie tak main lah beb... apa derang ingat aku ni robot? mintak terus dapat... ?!?!?! sabar ye wahai producer - producer sekalian...

My short film pon...jalan cerita semua dah ada. tinggal nak visualkan diatas kertas.. itu yang penat. pasal walaupun semua ni ada dalam kepala. tapi bila nak tulis plak hilang kata - kata yang cantik untuk nak terangkan!!! Arghhhhh!! How la?!?!??!

anyhow.. its 4 am. Nak kena tido lah. esok pagi nak gi Shah Alam .. pastu nak ke location. Tomorrow will be another looooooooooooooooooong day...

Kepada para stalkerku yang setia mengintai ke blog saya ni. Teruskan lah...tapi tak yah lah nak letak my url ni kat forum ke kat email ke YM ke... cukup2 lah korang je yang menstalk blog ni.. bukan ada apa sangat kat sini.. setakat citer aku ngan laki aku. citer apa aku buat tiap hari... my opinion on certain issues.. korangkan lebih pandai dan bijak. blog aku ni tak de benda lah...

so...Laters yah!

Crystal Ball?

Hahahaha.. kelakar baca entry baru elly.. she said saya ni umpana crystal ball... bukan crystal ball beb tapi kata hati.. dan juga pemikiran yang rasional. bila nak buat sesuatu fikir masak - masak jangan main lepas je... anyhow... itu je nak tulis... elly dah tukar add blog. sorry tapi takleh nak reveal kat sini...

Perihal Elly

and so...cerita tentang elly dah naik balik. nak komen ke ? rasa tak perlu lah kan.. I pun sedikit terperanjat bila baca apa yang kuar dalam paper. Nak percaya? Mungkin tidak. Tapi kalau nak kata tak percaya pun ...tak tahu lah...*sigh* anyhow, i have been warned by my husband not to say anything. So I am not going to comment on it.

Sebenarnya tentang hal elly jumpa zubir.. i dah cakap dengan dia. JANGAN! tapi itu lah degil. nak jugak jumpa... nak buat camner kan?? Benda dah jadi.

Sekarang ni Elly ada masalah lagi besar yang perlu diselesaikan. Elly..my advice is for you to just let IT go. There's no point of you holding on to it. U sanggup ke nak lost your family semata - mata kerana benda itu? Tak payah lah babe. Lepas kan je. Mana tahu bila u dah ready, U will get another chance....

Well... that is all that I am going to say. Laters......

Mengapa dan Kenapa ?

Mengapa orang suka nak jaga tepi kain orang lain ek?

Tak boleh ke kalau ko biar je orang dengan hidup mereka..So.dia adalah seorang "celebrity".Seorang "celebrity" bukan hak masyarakat. They have no reasaon to answer to anybody. Tak perlu langsung kecualilah apa yang berlaku melibatkan masyarakat sekitar.Please lah personal life is personal life. Janganlah jadikan perkara tu sebagai satu jalan untuk menjatuhkan seseorang. Tak best lah...

Kenapa pulak ek..

Kenapa orang suka nak salahkan orang lain daripada mengaku kesilapan sendiri?

Dalam dunia yang banyak sangat penipuan dan hipokrasi ni...setiap orang takkan lari dari melakukan kesilapan. Namun.. sebagai manusia yang konon - konon nak perfect je.. selalu tak nak mengaku kesilapan mereka. Instead, we point our finger to any other person yang paling dekat. but remember, setiap kali kita tunding jari pada orang..empat jari lagi tunding pada diri sendiri. Jangan lah suka sangat nak salahkan orang lain...cermin diri... kita tak perfect. jangan lah nak berlagak perfect sangat...

HAH! Ini bukan ditujukan pada sesiapa.and whatever I write pon keluar secara spontan je ni...

SNIPPETs

ishkkk... penat yang macam ni yang tak suka ni.. n sebenarnya rasa macam nak demam pon ada.. ye lah semalam kena hujan.. balik umah tak mandi terus tido plak tu... ermmmm.....neways, nak update blog sebenarnya tak larat but i think i'll still post lah kan... but just some lil snippets lah..

1. My broadband dah direactive balik.. so boleh lah berblogging dari location.. YAY!! : )

2. Hari ni nak jumpa Elly sebab shooting pun depan Pavillion je...tapi jap gi lah jumpa dia..

3. I seriously rasa sedikit demam but what to do..kerja tetap kerja jugak...so kenalah bekerja jugak...*sigh*

4. Berkenaan dengan ada orang email Elly about don't trust me. I ni jahat. Nak jatuhkan Elly sebab I leak info kat CARI. Bullshit lah!! Bukan ke info semua team "CSI" yang dapat?? Apa lagi yang saya leak.. lagipun setiap apa yang saya tulis di blog/forum/email semuanya atas kebenaran Elly. Jangan lah nak lagakan orang. You don't even know me.. nak buat cerita buat apa...

5. oh! Semalam my cerita Anak Mak dah keluar kat TV. Suka! hehehhehehe... tapi sedikit disappointed sebab ada scene yang dibuang.. but at least keluar jugak lah my cerita kat TV kan??

...silly snippets....

1. dapat berita daripada elly about what happened..(sorry lah lambat update)... that fat journalist tu memang jahat sangat but no worries... we have got a few things up our sleeves kan elly? korang tunggu je lah...

2. i dah start keje.PENAT. balik lambat,bangun cepat,kat location plak tak buat apa sangat... but I like being at the location... makes me miss my past life... my life at MHP... love those days..

3. I finally siapkan my script last SUNDAY. Quite happy with it... Now am working on a few other stories including "Kerana Chenta Rania"....

4.Hmmmm.... kepada Elly. be strong k babe. Tak payah pikir apa yang diaorang dah buat kat u. kita lagi kuat nak lawan diaorang...

snippets

A few things yang nak ditulis tapi malas nak elaborate panjang - panjang..Here goes.

1. I am still writing but not getting far with it. director nak hari ahad and am still at scene 30.

2. I don't think "YOU" should meet him. You're only going to get into trouble. But that's just my opinion..

3. Life is not so good.

4. I am still trying to figure "Kerana Chenta Rania". It's a short film so.. I'm really cracking my head.

5. "Aku Bukan Sally" is doing ok. tapi kena hold sekejap sebab nak siapkan another script yang lebih urgent.

That's about it.

Laters. Ayuni Zamani

...songs to inspire...

hmmm.... every time I feel like writing. I will always find a song to go with it. bukan apa.. kekadang tu it helps when i write. i listen to something yang ada kena mengena... and right now ada dua lagu yang memang tetap on my playlist. lagu number 1. cinta antara kita (duta feat. baizura kahar ), lagu number 2. lucky (jason mraz and colby caillat )... hmmm.... but again... right now maseh lagi sedikit block. mungkin lagu ni tak sesuai dengan cerita yang sedang ditulis. ishkkk... ok lah. I really have to go and write. Director nak script hari ahad ni....

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Tuesday.

Alhamdulillah. Dua perkhabaran yang baik diterima hari ni and semalam.

1. my script yang bagi pada Haiza dapat good feedback dari producer. Insya-Allah adalah kot.
(Ye lah kalau dah sampai nangis baca script tu, tak dapat tak tau lah kan)

2. Ada job yang sedang dalam perbincangan. Tengah buat breakdown location and all. Ini pun harap dapat lah jugak.

Anyways, I am still working on my scripts "Aku Bukan Sally!" and "Kerana Chenta Rania". tapi buat masa ni saya sedikit terblock untuk menulis. So... relaks dulu lah k... (again, excuses..excuses). This few days ni.. I've done a lot of thinking. I have to buck UP! Can't be satying at home forever kan? I have got to do something. Dah penat lah menjaja cerita tapi satu apa pun tak jalan lagi.

Oh well.. nanti later I will write some more. Nak sambung buat breakdown location and all.

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Weekend yang sunyi

Hmmm.... 2 hari tak blogging. Tak tau nak tulis apa.

Ok. there is something that I wanted to write about. It's an issue on people spreading gossips and then kena tangkap dengan SKMM tapi still rasa yang diri mereka tu tak bersalah. I mean... kalau dah terkantoi tu tak boleh nak buat apa kan? Itu lah.. I dah cakap dulu. Bergossip pon boleh kena tangkap. Derang semua tak nak percaya. Now bile dah terkena batang idung sendiri.. baru takot. Terus diam semua. Itu lah. nak bergossip pon berpada - pada lah kan? Ini sampai semua benda korang nak korek... last-last gali lubang kubur sendiri...

Oh! Semalam I watched Pensil. Best jugak cerita tu. It's very emotional. (Not for me though,my hubby nangis tak berenti) Cerita mengisahkan tentang masyarakat yang masih lagi memandang rendah pada golongan OKU. Kesian tau bile tengok. I mean kita tengok dia jalan pun kita dah sedih.. Ini kan pula bila dia yang keluar cari duit untuk mak dia. Dia belikan hadiah birthday mak dia. Pastuh mak dia pukul dia n nak lepaskan dia balik pada datuk dia yang 24 jam asyik mabuk. I cannot stand lah people like that. Tapi itu lah hakikatnya masyarakat kita. Lagi - lagi orang Melayu.

I am still stuck with my script. I know. I know. dah dekat 2 minggu dah ni. ke lebih ? hahaha.. I pon tak tau but ye lah.. dengan my great depression hari tu kejap. Pastu me being sakit lagi... (excuses, excuses)...

PS: For, Elly. I am fine. I know kita dah beberapa hari tak berhubung. I am FINE. Jangan risau k. Have fun with your new job.

Jumaat yang INDAH

Hari ni hari JUMAAT. A beautiful sunny friday. I am thinking of going to the gym afterwards and then a dip in the pool.... Mesti best kan ??? : )

Anyways.. Like I said yesterday.. I am back up again. Hari ni. By hook or by crook.. I akan siapkan my script. Biarlah tak tido pun... I akan siapkan my script...

So.. Laters. I nak start on my script... ke I nak pergi gym dulu ??? Hmmm.....

Desicions..desicions...

today is THURSDAY

today is THURSDAY. I suddenly feel that I am a new ME. and please lupakan my last entry. I am still here people. WRITING is in my blood. takkan lah nak lupakan macam tu je... Anyhow... I think today I will continue my script yang dah 2-3 hari terbengkalai tu. I mean ada lagi 20 -25 secnes to go. takkan nak biarkan gitu je kan ??? Owh well... my great depression dah lepas. I am BACK people!!! Elly.. jangan risau k... I'm alright dah. : )

stop right there..

I have had enough of everything. Y'know.. i once wrote in my blog somewhere..
Everythime I have a dream.. Somebody, Somewhere will make sure that my dream will stay as a lil girls dream. BENCI SANGAT!! I put 150% of my everything.. but it always goes wrong. Mesti ada yang tak kena. and that is why I have decided not to be in this business anymore. Sorry guys, Ayuni is out of the industry. I really just want to get a job. A job that I know I will hate but at least i'll be paid every month for hating it. Unless.. I dapat jadi Cikgu Tadika... Anyhow... This is it for me. Ayuni akhirnya dah give UP!

SAYA NAK JADI CIKGU TADIKA!

saya nak jadi cikgu tadika...
saya nak jadi cikgu tadika...
saya nak jadi cikgu tadika...

STUPID A**HOLES!!!

I am so bloody tired lah. aku buat proposals..aku buat script. aku pening kepala siang malam pikir macam mana nak bayar sewa rumah bila duit pon takde and derang cakap aku tak buat kerja?? Ko apahal!!!!!!! orang orang macam ni lah yang aku benci. ko tau tak betapa susahnya nak come out with a bloody synopsis and proposal. Korang cakap senang lah. Bukan korang yang buat. Aku ni dalam kepala otak ni ada lebey kurang 20 cerita. and seriously... petik jari je. aku boleh ceritakan semua synopsis dari A to Z yang aku dah hantar pada producers and TV Stations. Lepas tu ko cakap aku tak buat kerja?!?!?!?!?!?!? F**k You!

Aku sakit hati lah macam ni. and from this day onwards.. aku cumalah seorang script writer. Aku tak mo terlibat dengan penghantaran proposal ke apa ke. Itu semua korang buat lah sendiri. Lagipon selama ni yang aku pergi jumpa producers, aku call producers .. ada korang bayar aku ke?

Dah! I GIVE UP! Lepas ni aku nak buka paper, aku nak jadi cikgu tadika. and don't anybody dare stop me!

SUNDAY

it's SUNDAY. my sleep till noon day ( although everyday pon i sleep till noon ) but today tido sampai tengahari pon tak rasa bersalah sangat. But today, I woke up way before noon. My cousins datang for breakfast. So kena lah bangun awal. Kemas rumah. Hari ni Zull masak. So.. all I have to do wait for my cousins to arrive. Best kan ada husband yang suka memasak?

Anyhow.. after my cousins berangkat ke MYDIN. me and Zull pon sambung tido. ( buruk perangai kan? hahahahaha ) Yea lah... dah ganggu our Sunday morning kan? So we slept untul around three kot. And that is my SUNDAY.

Anyways, my friend SMSed me with some news yang bodoh. Itu orang sudah mula berkata - kata. tapi apa yang dia cakap tu sebenarnya bercanggah dengan statement dia sebelum ni. Itu lah orang tu kalau dah menipu memang susah nak keep track tentang penipuan yang dijalankan. Hari ni cakap A, esok bila someone else tanya, dia jawab B pulak. So... my advice. Persetankan. Buat tak tahu. Kita tahu apa yang betul and lets just keep it that way.

Hmmm.... I guess my Sundays ni sentiasa tak aman kot. What with all the news yang suka nak memburukkan orang. Memang lah kalau aku tak amik tahu pun takpe tapi kalau dah masalah itu yang yang datang pada i. nak tak nak... fikir jugak lah...

Owh well... later nanti I will write more k. Nak pergi rumah my mum jap.

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Sabtu - day !

Today. Like yesterday.. saya dah mula bangun awal di pagi hari. It feels good jugak tapi tengahari sikit masuk petang ngantuk macam nak gila... tapi tahan jugak mata ni.. ye lah kalau tido petang mesti susah nak tido malam... but again semalam tido lambat jugak tapi boleh bagun awal. So i think my timing dah ok dah... :) Anyhow... dapat good news hari ni. The proposal yang di hantar semalam dapat good feedback. Sekarang ni tengah tunggu panggilan dari "pegawai yang berkenaan" tapi tak tahu lah bile pulak... Well.. I have posted my first four scenes of script Aku Bukan Sally at my other blog. http://ayuniwrites.blogspot.com
So.. sesaper yang rase nak baca.. boleh lah. nak komen pon boleh. Just tell me what you guys think k .... Well... till later yah...

CLOSURE atau CLOSER?

Hmmm... dia pergi jugak. Mungkin untuk dapatkan CLOSURE like she said.. or maybe untuk menCLOSERkan diri kot... hahahahhaa..... Anyhow... itu keputusan yang diambil. Remember that u're really at risk . Emotionally and Mentally. All I can say is.. Good Luck and Have FUN!

Seronok!

hari ni bangun tidur. aku rasa seronok. tak tahu kenapa. I woke up with a smile on my face.
dalam kepala ni bukannya ada apa sangat. semangat nak menulis pun kurang tapi asyik tersenyum dari bangun tidur sampailah sekarang. hmmm... kenapa ya ?
mungkin pasal dengar lagu? lagu ni bukannya lagu gembira. btw, i am hearing to D'Massiv-Cinta ini membunuhku. Happy ke ? Pelik kan ? Lagu yang sebegini depressing pon boleh buat aku happy tak terhingga.
Anyhow.. seriously.. I really don't know how to write long blog entries like Elly because I seldom have any thing to talk about apart from my self, my problems... Maybe I should read more, or watch TV more and give my opinion on it but that bores me... so what should i actually write about ? Dulu.. time start blogging kat friendster. I write about my work n my friends n my love life. Sekarang dah bosan lah nak tulis pasal tu....
Hmmm...... ok lah i'll write about this book I'm reading now.. It's called "The Chamber" by John Grisham. I think I've read that book more than 3 times kot. I have all of John Grisham's title.. I don't know why but I like it. Mungkin sebab dulu time kecik - kecik pernah terfikir nak jadi Lawyer tapi tak kesampaian. Bukan takde peluang tapi pasal bile dah besar sikit terus nak jadik writer plak...
Anyways back to the book.. This book is about a man, Sam Cayhall yang telah bomb sebuah pejabat kepunyaan seorang lawyer Yahudi, Marvin Kramer. Walaupun dia tak berniat nak bunuh sesiapa tapi bomb yang dipasang lambat meletup n telah membunuh anak kembar this Marvin Kramer. Sam Cayhall kena tangkap dan dibicarakan tiga kali. Pada kali ketiga, dia dijatuhkan hukuman mati. anyhow.. a month before dia akan dijatuhkan hukuman.. his long lost grandson muncul and decides that dia nak tolong grandfather dia supaya tak dijatuhkan hukuman mati... Anyways.. ending of the story I can't remember.. So nanti bila dah abih baca the book, I will write here k.... : )
And so... I think this is byfar the longest enrty I have written.. ; )

CURSE of the RED DOT!

this is the third month.
and once again i am CURSED!
if you get what I mean.
...................................................
out of words! I am so frustrated!
So be it.... Malas nak fikir dah.
good night.

hari baru..

*sigh* baru habis mem-pdf kan all my proposals.. and menclearkan all my folders dalam computer..penat jugak sebenarnya.. anyhow i am more 50% dah siap with my script...
sekarang ni dah tengah takde idea dah.. but no worries akan disambung kala malam bulan mengambang nanti... nak menulis ni kena tunggu malam dan mengantuk baru boleh tulis...
pelik ek ? anyhow... thanks to elly kerana memuji... ; ) walaupun this is my attempt after 3 months tak buat script...tapi i still feel sedikit tak puas hati.. yelah takut tulis bagai nak rak.. dapat kat director yang hampeh menangis tak berlagu aku!!......
anyways.. semalam pergi open house rumah aifa. the one and only open house yang saya pergi sebenarnya... kesian kan ? hahahahhahahaha....
owh well... today is a new day. and i am in a new mood. tak tau nape but today i feel so open so free. so bersemangat nak buat kerja... ermmm..... well later nanti saya tulis lah ok...
nak kena berdiri kejap. dah sakit kaki , duduk lama sangat.... :P

sepi itu indah

just finished watching sepi for the second time in this week. sebenarnya cerita tu best. cara penceritaannya simple cuma mungkin when it comes to imaan's story. ia jadik sedikit complicated but to tell u guys the truth.. sebelom kita semua diberitahu khalil tu sebenarnya dah mati.. saya memang tahu dia dah tahu. don't ask me how i know.. but i just knew. maybe sebab saya ini penulis dan saya tengok cerita tu dari mata seorang penulis juga.

sepi itu indah. bila kita kesepian. kita banyak berfikir. kita mampu untuk menilai segala aspek kehidupan dalam keadaan kita sepi dan menyepi. sepi tak semestinya bermakna kita ni depressed. kita boleh jugak jadi happy bila kita ni kesepian.

hmmm.... owh well. sekarang ni saya memang perlukan kesepian dan keadaan yang senyap. i have a script to finish. it's call Aku Bukan Sally! Cerita ni tentang apa ? haha.. tunggu saja lah. maybe i'll post it on my Ayuni Writes blog.

So people, i need to go n menyepi kan diri. Laters yah!

life goes on

i am strong. I have to move on. i can't bear watching tv and i see all the people i know is doing well. I have to be better than them. I know i can do it. after two years in this industry, i think i know my way around well enough to be a better writer. today, i just submitted to proposal to media prima and i am praying hard that they will like it.

right now.. I am working on a film proposal. A friend said she will help me. Hopefully it will work out. and so... life goes on. I won't look back because I am moving straight ahead!

This is how i used to write....

kenapa saya?

January 30th, 2007 by ayunishima ---- > this post is from my friendsterBLOG.

kenapa dengan saya?
apa yang salah?
saya ada buat salah?
kamu yang buat saya macam ini..
kamu yang menkonfiuskan diri ini
kamu yang terlalu baik pada saya..
saya tak suka diperlekehkan
saya benci bila dia tiada disisi
saya bingung diperlakukan begini
siapa kamu?
mengapa kamu ke sini?
bila masa kamu hadir dalam hidup ini?
saya runsing…sangat runsing..
dia ada..kamu pun ada…
pelik…saya benci bila perlu memilih..
kini pilihan sudah pun dibuat…
kamu harus saya lupakan..
dia yang menjadi pilihan..
kamu perlu pergi..tinggal saja kenangan di hati..
dia yang sangat saya sayangi..
saya bingung lagi… kenapa?
saya sendiri pun tak tahu…
pilihan dah di buat..tapi hati masih lagi berbelah bahagi..
dia di sini ..kamu PERGI!
apa makna semua ini?
mengapa fikiran saya runsing?
kenapa terlalu banyak yang saya fikirkan?
buat apa nak fikir benda yang dah berlaku?
saya bodoh? saya naif?
mungkin juga..mungkin ya!
memang saya bodoh..
memang saya naif..
hati saya dicuri..oleh dia..
itu 4 tahun dulu…
dia masih pegang hati saya..
maaf tapi saya tahu kita takkan bersama
saya perlu pergi…tapi kamu..
kamu kawan saya..kita hanya sahabat…
pelik sungguh benda yang dipanggil CINTA.
tiada apa yang menarik..
tapi kenapa saya?
mengapa tak kamu atau dia…?

Some pictures

Hmm..semenjak forum jadi senyap... I have nothing to write about.. so after going through so many of my pics..I decided to put some here.. Just for FUN.. : )

First.. ini semua gambar masa kat BALI.. on our honeymoon..



Second ni..gambar my family cat.. Nama dia SMOKIE.He's a mainecoon..

Ha..sudah lah... penat plak nak tunggu untuk upload gambar ni... hmmm... nanti later lah ek..
I will upload more pictures...

Cheers. Ayuni Zamani

kesian kat diaorang ni semua...

ishk..ishk..ishk... meroyan nampak?
alahai... gosip tu tak salah ... tapi kalau keluar gambar family , kawan...
itu dah jadi lebih. itu namanya nak memalukan orang lain.
kalau gosip. orang tak kenal siapa yang digosipkan..
kalau saya letak gambar awak semua. siap dengan gambar family awak. dengan niat memburukkan awak. MARAH tak ?
So...masih lagi di panggil gosip ke ?
apa yang saya buat adalah menjawab kepada semua GOSSIP.
Kalau masih tak nak terima.. itu masalah saya ke ???
Walaupun saya ni blaja takat diploma je.. tapi saya belajar jugak media law.
ini bukan gosip. ini dikira FITNAH.

Jadi untuk renungan semua.. bacalah apa yang saya dah tulis dibawah ni ye... Kalau tak faham.. boleh lah tanya k.... ; )

Gossip in Islam

Islam considers backbiting the equivalent of eating the flesh of one's dead brother. According to Muslims, backbiting harms its victims without offering them any chance of defence, just as dead people cannot defend against their flesh being eaten. Muslims are expected to treat each other like brothers, deriving from Islam's concept of brotherhood amongst its believers.

Defamation

In law, defamation (also called calumny, libel, slander, and vilification) is the communication of a statement that makes a false claim, expressly stated or implied to be factual, that may give an individual, business, product, group, government or nation a negative image. Slander refers to a malicious, false, and defamatory statement or report, while libel refers to any other form of communication such as written words or images. Most jurisdictions allow legal actions, civil and/or criminal, to deter various kinds of defamation and retaliate against groundless criticism. Related to defamation is public disclosure of private facts which arises where one person reveals information which is not of public concern, and the release of which would offend a reasonable person.

statement!statement!statement!

hmmm... banyak jugak soalan yang nak kena jawab ni...baru berapa ari tak menulis dalam ni.. orang dah rindu...hahaha...anyhow...

STATEMENT 1
kenapa saya create one entry berkenaan apa yang tertulis di forum..
easy answer.. i can't reply at the forum..
cus m not using my own ID..and i know all u people is reading my BLOG..
so i tulis lah kat sini..
alahai otak saya yang sebesar otak burung unta ni pun pandai jugak sebenarnya...

STATEMENT 2
Mr P buat police report. Salah ke ? tak kot.. dia buat begitu to protect himself..
Siapa dia nak saman.. itu hak dia...
kenapa perlu dia saman Elly. Elly tak buat apa - apa kat dia kot...
Jadi korang semua tunggu je lah k....mana tau nama korang naik...

STATEMENT 3
Mengikut salah satu post CK dalam forum..
saya bertanggungjawab membuat kan segalanya dicensored...
Opsss... Salah lagi... not me yah...
why shud i want it to be censored?
Sedangkan masa tu saya sendiri belom dapat baca apa yang diPOST..

Statement 4
Saya seriously dah bosan dengan benda and so does Elly.
Kami dah amik keputusan untuk tidak lagi fikir pasal ni.
Buang masa je lah.. So u guys teruskan lah memfitnah orang.
Segala fitnah yang korang lemparkan menjadi pahala kepada mangsa fitnah tersebut.

Terima Kasih.

bila mereka dah berkata - kata...

alamak.. takutnya.. kena maki habis ni...
but do i care? tak kot...
all this lil people punya comment takkan nak goyang kot...
anyhow.... kenapa saya suka baca apa yang mereka tulis ??
sebab saya sendiri nak tahu siapa yang betul, siapa yang salah..
saya tak kata mereka betul..
saya tak kata yang orang lagi satu tu betul jugak...
for me this is just an entertainment for...
suka nak baca pasal orang and their behaviour....
SALAH ke......................?

pS: kepada sesaper yang terasa marah dengan my comment or entry before this.. sorry.

....in the middle...

what would u do... when two people can't stop arguing..
and ur stuck in the middle...
u can't close ur ears, u can't close ur eyes,
and u can't even speak ur mind.
all you have to do is listen...
dari kecik sampai ke besar..
aku asik kena dengar dua orang ni bergaduh..
aku ingat, aku dah kawen ni.. kurang lah sikit..
tapi rasanya makin teruk kot...
adoiiiii!!! pening kepala aku .....
so.. what do u suggest i do ?
diam kan diri atau lari ???????

hari ini saya bangun awal...

wah!! hari ni saya bangun awal...
it feels good sebenarnya to wake up early...
walaupun maseh sedikit mengantuk
but i am trying my best taknak tido balik..
hmmmm... so wat am i supposed to do now ek..
lama ni tak bangun awal..
hehehehe... :P

Penerangan ---> akibat sakit hati.

1. Just finished reading Valencia 6: Finale Cinta Maya Darina Hines @ Elly Ahmad.. although my reading access belom cecah 2 pon.. but I have my ways..

2. Cuma nak terangkan pada semua.. Maya @ Elly @ sesaper lah kan.. tak pernah offer saya bekerja dengan dia... seperti yang saya terangkan pada Claire.. in terms of career i walk on my own..I have my own company...

3. FYI , Script "Cinta Alam Maya" bukan ditulis oleh Elly. I think I dah pon beritahu kan ...

4. Lagi satu... Yanie takde kena mengena dalam hal ni. Jangan la babitkan nama dia. Kesian dia tau..

5. Saya tidak pernah dipengaruhi oleh Elly. She is my friend. Saya tolong setakat yang mampu.

Thank You.

SNIPPETS - a weeks worth

Monday - hmmmm.... wat did i do on monday ek ?? owh..woke up late..patut gi RTM tapi tak jadi.. so sambung tido.. hahaha...

Tuesday - Pergi jumpa YB. Got a few little jobs.. balik rumah terus start buat proposal..

Wednesday - Stayed at home. Masak sambal udang yang sedap. work on my proposals...

Thursday - Went to the bank in the morning. Amik duit dari ayah. Ohhh... makan KFC... tak masak pasal pening fikirkan my proposal yang tak siap - siap lagi!!

Friday - Finally semua my proposal siap!! YAY !! hari ini melepak..tengok Across the Universe...untuk kali ketia. Best cerita ni...

Saturday - Jumpa "Director" untuk buat Storyboard. Got some useful ideas. YB sms cakap jumpa lagi 2 minggu pasal dia pergi China... Arghhhh!!!! See... i wasted one week... Kan best kalau bgtau dari awal.. tak payah nak rushing - rushing!! Pening kepala aku !!!!

Sunday - Woke up at noon... as usual. Aiza call. Cakap ada job. made a date nak jumpa dia malam ni...siapkan 2 proposal. Pergi mydin beli groceries..malam masak kari daging.. SEDAP!!!

So camner?? Ok tak... a week of my life.Bosan kan ?? hahahhahaha... but i love my life.

Ayuni Zamani

yay! hr ni masak kari daging

hey ... i am so pleased with my self...
lepas dah seminggu nak masak kari daging...
hari ni baru ada masa...
wah!!! sedap sungguh bau kari daging...
mana abi ni....?!?!?! orang lapar nak makan..
dia plak tak balik balik lagi...

reading is good

ermm... hmm... cam ne nak cakap ni ek..
i like to read. i read a lot.
i like to read other people's blog..
rasa macam my blog ni tak best lah plak..
hahaha.. maybe gaya penulisan setiap orang lain kot..
and i enjoy reading about other people's life than my own..
tadi i baca someone's blog...
rupa- rupa nya blog ni tak semestinya pasal things that matters kan ?
benda yang takde sangkut paut pon boleh tulis jugak...
alahai ayuni... selama ni u write things that matters ke ???
anyhow... just nak point out.. reading is good. itu je.

ayuni.. wake up!

hey.. i read a fren's note.. and guess what ? its actually a wake up call for me jugak.
ye lah. sejak benti kerja n decided to go on my own.. baru satu job yang i dapat. mana boleh gini. i need to prove to people that i can do it jugak. setakat nak buat script yang suka hati n takde kualiti buat pe kan.. anyhow... i am back. and i will write the best i can. pray for me people.

don't really wanna know

hey peeps...
lagi sekali i nak tegaskan..
i was never part of the maya darina telenovela..
and i shall remain that way..
thanks.

Ayuni Explains.

I am so bloody tired with all yang sedang berlaku. Pelik sangat. My intention is just to help a friend in need but I feel that I pulak yang terjerat kat tetengah... anyhow.. this is it. I can't have a life with this hanging on my back. I QUIT!!

To P, i am sorry. I know I have said too much but this is for your own good. I hope you're not mad at me. I beg you p.. please lah keluar and untie all the knots yang dah terjadik nih...

To El, I have made my point kot. I trust you but this is the end of the road. You have to move on your own now. I had fun... but I have a life jugak. I have so many other things to do and think about dari pikir pasal ni.

To others, I am sorry if I hurt any of you but I am only just a human kan...

So this will be my last entry on this matter. I was NEVER part of this and I SHALL remain that way.

SNIPPETS

1. I am sorry that I have to block my blog for the past few days. Bukan apa, my blog ni ada stat counter yang boleh trace siapa masuk my blog, so bile I dapat tahu ada my link di certain forum ni... I terus lah block.
   
2. Saya ini bukan balaci kepada Elly @ Maya @ Sesaper saja... Saya , Ayuni Zamani. I am a freelance Script Writer. I used to work with MIG and that is how i know Elly. I have been in the industry for quite a while. So I know my way around.
   
3. I would like to make a statement yah .. so silalah baca.
   
   1. Maya Darina TIDAK WUJUD! Saya ulangi ... MAYA DARINA TIDAK WUJUD! Kepada CSI CSI sekalian, hentikan saja lah pencarian kamu semua.
      
   2. Maya Darina telah direka oleh pihak tertentu ( nama tak boleh disiarkan atas sebab tertentu) untuk menutup sebuah cerita yang lain. Jadi saya pun tak pasti macam mana FT boleh buat statement yang Maya Darina pernah menipunya. Mollie, Melia dan seangkatan dengannya pun tak wujud. Jadi, pada pandangan saya, mungkin ada pihak yang telah meminta FT untuk membuat penjelasan.
      
   3. CONFESSION OF A MORON yang telah saya post di blog ini telah di tulis oleh AZHAR, bekas pelajar praktikal di MIG yang mengaku telah menyebarkan berita mengenai kisah percintaan Pierre dengan Maya Darina. Sesungguhnya memang dia yang tulis. Kalau nak kan kepastian, message me.
      
   4. Segala apa yang saya ketahui dan telah saya tulis di sini adalah mengikut pandangan saya. Tapi yang saya pasti MAYA DARINA memang tidak wujud.
      
   5. Saya juga berfikiran ada sesetengah pihak yang tidak puas hati dengan keakraban Elly dan Pierre dan cuba untuk memisahkan mereka dengan menyebarkan berita berita palsu ini.
      
   6. Untuk pengetahuan semua, Elly adalah scriptwriter yang terlibat dengan penulisan script Jangan Pandang Belakang ( The Series ). Sebab itu dia rapat dengan Pierre Andre.
      
   7. Hubungan antara Pierre dan Elly pula, saya tidak punya hak untuk menjawabnya, saya rasa apa kata kita tunggu sahaja penjelasan dari Pierre Andre sendiri.
      

      
       

4. I think, I've said enough. BTW, please remove my picture from the forum. That picture is of me and my ex boyfriend. I am married now and because of your irresponsible act, I had a fight with my husband.
   
5. Whatever I write here is MINE. If I dapat tahu sesiapa yang COPY and put it somewhere else without my permission. I will take legal action.
   
6. FYI, "Chicken Sandwich and Cappuccino"© is my latest story that I have just written. I didn't copy it and it's not a plagiarism because my English is a lot better than my Malay. Tapi dalam blog, I write simple and broken English because I malas nak pikirkan grammar and wat nots.
   

Segala apa yang saya tuliskan ini adalah mengikut pandangan dan penyiasatan saya sendiri. Saya tahu saya Cuma mendengar sebelah pihak sahaja but hopefully, apa – apa yang telah saya sampaikan di sini dapat membantu korang semua. Anyhow, Selamat Hari Raya to all.

Thank You.

Ayuni Zamani.

Last POST before RAYA

Dear people...

This will be my last post before hari raya.
I will continue all my post after hari raya ok...
well.. maybe after sembahyang raya lah.. but at the mo.. i have tons to do..
so SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all.
MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN. : )

pS: u guys pun cukup cukup lah nak mengganggu hidup orang buat beberapa hari k.

What A Life to lead

I am tired. Baru sehari firing people all over and m tired of it. P , now i understand why you kept quiet. I shouldn't have pushed u n El too hard to make any statement. I'm tried lah. Lagi 2-3 hari nak raya kita duk sibuk menfire orang kan... ahahhahahahaha... anyhow. this is not what this post is about. Lets just get down to biz k.

It is so weird to be part of this industry. At first I thought it was cool but its not. I don't see what is there to be cool about. People back stabbing each other. Making stupid and so untrue statements. always and I say it again ... always use other people to their own advantage. Penat ah gini.... I am an honest person. ( Not trying to masuk bakul n angkat sendiri ) but I tell what I hear or see or read. I don;t like to be a hypocrite about it, because I am not. Kesian I. Selalu kena tipu dengan orang - orang yang suka nak ambil kesempatan.

In this industry. TRUST no one. but yourself. Kalau rasa benda tu salah.Jangan ikut. and kalau gerak hati u cakap U betul then be it that way,tak perlu nak bercampur dengan orang. Tak payah nak jaga hati orang. Jangan sekali - kali beritahu sesiapa tentang apa - apa. lagi- lagi kalau u tengah tulis sebuah cerita. because esok esok cerita tu dah kuar kat TV and ur still writing.

This is not the life I want to lead. NOPE! I dont want , hypocrasy to be my lifestyle. and i dont want to fake my smile and i really don't want to LIE. That is not me. Look , ask my frens. My true frens... I am not like this. I used to be one but please. I am tired of living a LIE.

So.. everybody.. please stop this or i shall reveal the bloody truth yang I tahu. I akan jatuhkan setiap sorang dari kamu semua. Bukan setakat jatuh, tapi terus tersungkur sampai nak bangun pun tak boleh. I was never part of this. and I wish to remain that way.

Thank You.

Ayuni Zamani

10 or Less.. & Angan - angan mat jenin..

People.. people...
i need you guys to read my my two post i mentioned above. Tell me again.. is the first one a wish list or is it just some 10 things i love, i hate, i wish for, i want to be, i love to read, of my favorite people.. apa ni... it wasnt a bloody wish list..
and as for the second post i mentioned... that was a wish list ... did i achieve it ?? YES i did. Kenapa lah ada orang yang bodoh sangat dalam dunia nih?? I really don't understand lah.... stupid! stupid! stupid!

FECK OFF LAH !!

memFIRE balik... : )

To Kak Ayu and Dynie Othman,

Pity both of you, as you all co-operated with someone who responsible for PEMECATAN anda berdua. YES, Maya Elie was the one who always cucuk Boss and Boss' and she also the one who told them, YOU kak Ayu, buat keje luar. Both of the Boss told us. So, who you going to trust, it's up to you now. Now I believe Maya Darina offers both of you to join her company,THAT'S GOOD, wait until both of you died 8000x, if you're lucky enough, the 8001st time Maya Darina will exists (Laugh). Now just relax and think how she make a fool on both of you. Or the easiest way, go and meet that Maya Darina, see if you can meet her.

Ard@Azhar... Regarding what you wrote about me.

1. I am sorry that your english is just so bad.
2. I was fired because your beloved company tak bole terima orang yang pandai macam i and yanie, QUIT. she wasnt fired.
3. yes.. actually i memamng suspect elly yang buat tapi gerak hati i kata.. bukan dia. tapi ur oh-so-best-fren-baru yang bgtau sebab i yang bgtau dia...
4. elly didnt offer me a job because for ur info i bukan baru dalam industri ni.i dah lama and i atually have my own company.

so sorry lah ye. jangan ingat semua orang bodoh macam u . and lain kali please my dear get ur facts right!

thanks.

CONFESSION OF A MORON.....(hillarious!!)

Assalamualaikum,

Dear Maya Molie, Maya Elie, Maya Melia & Maya Darina...

First I would like to say that I'm sorry I didn't answer your calls and messages couple of time before. My 'LAWYER' said I shouldn't response any calls from 'ALL' of you until further notice (which will never come). You will never succeed on making that 'mandrem thingy on me anymore you big fat monster(S). Maybe you already knew about my plan towards 'ALL' of you so that's why you tried to hypnotized me lately,wasn't you?But ADE AKU KESAH?(Laugh).

YES, SURPRISEEE!!!! I'm the SPY.

Owh, here's the other important anouncement for ALL of you Mayas. If you must know, I'm the one who told Zubir everything about you. Yes, that picture also, how nice your brown clothes on the paper. But you like it,wasn't you? YOU WANT FAME, I GAVE YOU FAME ALREADY. For this matter I would like to say sorry to Faizal Tahir(whatever happen, you still my idol :D) and Pierre if these article offended both of you. It's not only just for your own sake, but also hundreds of others. Too bad for Maya Darina and Maya Elie, I already saved all of your pictures, so no need to burden yourself to terminate (again) your accounts. No, it's ok,don't thanks me.

For credits, I would like to express my gratitude to Maya Darina for terkantoi lupe gune suare manje mase call last time, to Bos as he still believe in me eventhough he knows I'm Maya Elie's best-la-sgt bestfriend (yes, you right Maya Darina and Maya Elie, me and him still going to continue the deal). To 'Nenek Kebayan', thanks for your wake up call, even they didn't believe you, you know we at the company believe in you. To mr so-calledhulubalang (if I'm not mistaken), sorry I did kutuk2 you in front of Maya Darina and Maya Elie. It just to make the drama looks REAL, now continue your pursuit on Maya Elie's hutang.

To Kak Ayu and Dynie Othman,

Pity both of you, as you all co-operated with someone who responsible for PEMECATAN anda berdua. YES, Maya Elie was the one who always cucuk Boss and Boss' and she also the one who told them, YOU kak Ayu, buat keje luar. Both of the Boss told us. So, who you going to trust, it's up to you now. Now I believe Maya Darina offers both of you to join her company,THAT'S GOOD, wait until both of you died 8000x, if you're lucky enough, the 8001st time Maya Darina will exists (Laugh). Now just relax and think how she make a fool on both of you. Or the easiest way, go and meet that Maya Darina, see if you can meet her.

This is the most IMPORTANT message for you Maya Elie. WHENEVER & WHEREVER I meet you once again, first thing I'm going to do is 'reward' you with 3 cute punches. 1 for make a fool of my dream and drag 'someone' who I already kicked her out from my life... And also for trying your luck to goda me. Another 1 is a request from 'Nenek Kebayan', and the last 1 is a free gift for you as you succeed on making people's life topsy turvy.

Mark my word, you made a fool on wrong people, so you have to prepare for it. I WILL MAKE YOUR LIFE A HELL any way possible. The article is the first start, more embarrasement for you soon. Owh, No@, no need to thanks me :D

To Pierre,

This is me and 'their problem, never in my intention to provoked you. If I ever talked to you before, believe me every single word was true, but whatever, just hope someday you will wake up and face the reality.

To Mayas,

Every artists will be notified regarding about you and your actions, and now the Boss trying to gather every informations and certain action will be executed by authority only for you. Aww, stop praising me you big fat hairy hand biarch :D

Bitch like you Elie who makes the industry a HELL. Fark that I will not going to let you go just like that. Thanks for your consideration.

Sincerely,

Ard
(The cutest teenage detective :D)

the TRUTH

dear people.. i am about to reveal the truth ....so here goes...

the TRUTH about me:
1. I am a writer. A scriptwriter to be exact but I am not that good. cuma bila penulisan seseorang tu I rasa sangat teruk. I cakap lah. Tak salah bercakap kan ?
2. I got a job at MIG because I asked for it. I emailed MJ and she called me in.
3. It's not that I hadap sangat nak kerja kat MIG but I needed the job because I was dead bored not writing anything for almost a year.
4. I didn't want to mix around with people because I know once, some good comes along, I memang akan berenti dari MIG.
5. YES! I memang tulis untuk company luar selama I bekerja dengan MIG but hey! I siapkan jugak all my work kan ?
6. I diberhentikan dari MIG sebab MJ cakap diaorang nak cut overhead. FINE BY ME! at least I can stay home kan ?
7. I am not SAD or DEPRESSED that I diberhentikan sebab like I said I tak hadap sangat kot kerja kat sana.
8. Honestly , I memang tak suka AIN sejak I masuk kerja lagi. I tak suka dia memang tanpa sebab. Dia tak buat salah pun dengan I but I am like that. Sekali I tengok muka seseorang, I dah boleh baca sama ada dia OK or NOT. In my book. She's not. NO offence, dia licik, boleh buat orang percaya dia tapi.... last-last I sedar jugak. Gerak hati awal I memang dah cakap jangan kawan dengan dia. Menyesal? Sedikit ....
9. I say what I want to say. Elly told me MJ cakap I ni rebellious. Memang I macam tu. Kalau I tak suka something I tunjuk.
10. I am actually a nice person but I don't like people messing around with me. I tak suka nak jaga sangat hati orang lain. Don't want to be friends with me ? Say it to my face lah !

TRUTH about Elly :
1. I am not that close to her. She only came to me when she sedar that whatever I said was true.
2. I was actually angry at her, because I know that she is some sort of a spy jugak.
3. I know the real story about her and I really know that whatever the press is saying about her is soooooooo not true.
4. YES! I was annoyed with her for always talking about P all day long at the office. So u're close to him. I don't really wanna know about it.
5. and YES! I also think that she is a lil "gila glamour" kot... wanting to follow on all the road tour and all....
6. I really don't know why she was transfered downstairs but what I actually thought was, since I so like to turun bawah, MJ wants her to stay downstairs and report to her of whatever I did masa kat bawah ... true?
7. She is also a good writer. So it's MIGs lost that they fail to see that.
8. Elly silap trust orang. Not to say that she shud have trusted me but ....
9.Elly is a strong person. She is. Don't mess with her jugak...
10. Elly is a nice person. Just like me. WE do our own thing and let us be...

The TRUTH about AIN.
1. Ain is a nobody. but she will do anything to be a somebody. Even if that means to stab people along way.
2. Ain has got a way to make people trust her by saying something like...I trust you. That's why I'm telling you this.
3. Her nickname of nenek kebayan was given by yanie and me. because she does look a lil like a witch not because of her perangai. Well... part of it anyway...
4. Ain cannot ..and I mean cannot terima kritikan dengan baik. As a fellow writer, byk kali i pointed out her mistakes but there's always an excuse for it.
5. I know that all she wants is just to be a good person. but to be good you have to start as a good person, not the other way around.
6. Ain also has got a way of twisting peoples word around. I told her that I was writing for another company and she told me, she heard it from another person. Stupid eyh? I think I can remember what I said...
7. I think Ain is a "Jolly Girl"... I think...
8. Ain always like to act as if she's naive and innocent but she is not. I think she knows more about so many things than me but like I said she likes to act naive and innocent.
9. YES! She does wear a Winnie the POOH jeans... and I was like.. you make tons of money and ... arghhhhhhh!!! Kelakar kan ?
10. She is not a nice person. Why do I say that ? Because I know. She is not.

So people... I am tired of typing. I will later write some more truth about some other things yang I tak boleh reveal kat sini. So tunggu k. Maybe lepas raya ke....

Selamat Hari Raya Friends. Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Pelik lah...

I just tak faham kenapa diaorang ni tak habis - abis lagi nak buat jahat dengan orang lain... cukup lah... puasa dah nak abih.. next week dah nak raya... sudah sudah lah ok....korang semua ni... sekali aku sebrkan benda yang sebenarnya baru korang tahu langit tu tinggi atau rendah... please lah.. eventhough i was never part of this.. but i am soooooo sangat fed up dengan apa yang sedang berlaku... so before korang semua menyesal... please leave my frens alone...

snippets - KU

1. i read a fren's blog.. it was depressing.. i thought i'm the one with problems but hell! hers are bigger...

2. love is a beautiful thing .. jangan lah nak sengsara sebab nya... aku pun tak faham kenapa ada orang yang terlalu naif tentang hal - hal ini...

3. percintaan adalah satu perjalanan yang sangat indah.... jangan lah sebab terlalu nak bercinta sangat kita jadi lupa tentang kehidupan sebenar...

4. bila kita mencintai seseorang itu.. kita harus tahu bahawa orang itu juga mencintai kita sebagaimana kita mencintai mereka...

5. cinta akan hilang serinya bila kita jadi terlalu obses dengan cinta dan orang yang kita cintai..

6. once bila kita rasa cinta itu bukan milik kita lagi... just take a deep breath, pusing and walk away from it.. jangan nak paksa diri...

OH NO!! I've been UNINVITED

Oh goodness me... I have been UNINVITED from reading someone's blog.... kah!kah!kah! Oh well... itu menunjukkan yang dia adalah seorang yang penakut. Kalau takut dilambung ombak, jangan berumah ditepi pantai, Kalau takut nak kena kritik, Jaga lah sikit perangai... hmmm... I will write again later... tengah ketandusan IDEA ni... laters.

the OTHER side of Ayuni

Hey .. I have another BLOG that's entirely for my writings..
My stories, my poetry..
If you wanna see the OTHER side of ME... email me ur email add so that I can invite u.. takmo lah orang - orang yang tak sepatutnya baca my cerita.. nanti kena CURI susah... :)
go to http://ayuniwrites.blogspot.com

angan - angan mat jenin ( 2 )

Ok... here it is, I did answered some Qs but I will not put it all in here, I will only put what is relevent ok :

February 25th 2002, 0020 hrs

....What are my future plans?
Obviously to further my studies in Mass Comm or Law at UiTM or UIA. To further to Richmond after my diploma. To find a job and be a someone. To find ***** ( sorry can't put his name here) and hope am still in love with him ( which i'm not). to be settled down by 2011.

Hahahhaha... so it's not really a wish list, more like a plan actually kan? So... did I achieve what I wrote here.

1. I did further my studies in Mass Comm at UiTM.
2. I didn't go to Richmond. It's too bloody expensive and I actually found a job after my diploma.
3. I found a job, a few actually. I became a someone. Well, at least part of the entertainment industry knows me , right ??
4. I did found him, we were together for 2 weeks and then he broke up with me. Stupid HIM !!!
5. I am married 2 1/2 months ago. So I achieve that ...

So... my wish list is mine. whether or not it can be realised, is up to me. Don't question it. I am my own person.... what if I question somebody's wish list....

Cheers.
Ayuni Zamani.

angan - angan mat jenin

I made a wish list.. someone question it... i mean... when i was 18, i made a wish list. I will look for it in my boxes. I'll put it here. and we'll see how much have i achieved ok? I am not the type to stop at somebody's comment.. I will achieve what I want.

At least I work my way up. Unlike some people yang mengipas bontot orang lain untuk jadi seseorang yang lain. Kita semua dilahirkan dengan akal yang sempurna. tetapi sesetengah orang yang tak sabar akan menggunakan akal yang diberikan dengan cara yang jahat....

So.. I will write again.

Mat jenin or not... we'll see ...

Cheers.
Ayuni Zamani

My writer's block is GONE

Hey everybody.. I am so excited sekarang ni... I have started writing again.. and I gotta this is one of the best after Peliknya Cinta and Bila Hujan... I am so happy. I'm hoping that someone will like this story i'm writing ... cross your fingers everybody.... Ayuni Zamani is coming out, facing the WORLD!! : )

lil snippets

1. I think the blog yang dibuat - buat oleh orang tertentu untuk menghentam ellie is sangat jahat. Look, I kenal Ellie. I know how she is... dia tak jahat lah ok... kita semua cari makan dalam industri ni. Kalau takut sangat korang jatuh tersungkur jangan lah nak jatuhkan orang lain pula...

2. Isu politik kat negara kita ni makin lama , makin menbosankan... so i have decided not to care about it anymore.. baik layan "telenovela" terbaik 2008 ni..

3. Telenovela yang ditulis oleh seorang scriptwriter dan director yang masih belom boleh dikatakan tersohor ni nampaknya semakin best.. mungkin lepas ni mereka akan jadi tersohor kot.. kahkahkah....

4. I am still having a writer's block.. but no worries. I am going to write the best script i can think of to lawan the "telenovela" terbaik ni...

5. Ada orang dapat bonus... mungkin sebab dia yang menjadi dalang dalam menjatuhkan orang lain... oh well! what goes around.. comes around.. setakat nak mereka - reka cerita sebab you have no life of your own,... i think.. i can do better....

6. Kenapa orang suka sangat nak mengampu pihak atasan? Jawapan dia.... sebab dia insecure. Dia takut boss akan suka dengan orang lain yang lagi bagus dari dia... itu lah jawapan nya !!

7. Bulan puasa dah nak habis.. Lepas ni RAYA. Lepas Raya... I will have lotsa jobs.. YAY!!!
( insya-ALLAH ).. at least.. I tak menjual maruah diri i untuk dapat bonus.... HAH !

8. Sebuah company yang jahat akan terima balasannya. Bila 40 kali orang sebut, akan menjadi satu doa. Doa orang - orang teraniaya ni selalunya dimakbulkan. So all together now, " Company yang suka aniaya orang akan jatuh bankrap..dan staff dia takkan dapat BONUS lagi dah " Amin..

9. Hmmmm..... I think my luck will change for the better next year. I have to work hard and buang all the anasir - anasir jahat... Industri ni akan jadi lebih baik tanpa orang - orang seperti nenek kebayan dan seorang director yang gila talak.. ahakas,...

lil snippets..

1. i am so penat from puasa..

2. life is just not normal... because i'm waking up early than usual....

3. m watching/hearing/ reading the best telenovela ever... hahahhaha.... tapi tak tau lah kalau ini semua gimmik untuk their next filem... kalau menang award lah telenovela ni ... i will give it the best script kot... hahahhahahahahahaha... sebab the cerita sangat berkait eventhough its not real... kahkahkah.....

4. m not writing anything new sebab i takde idea... tapi i ada beberapa idea yang bermain dalam kepala cuma belom keluar je...

5. raya dah nak dekat..YAY !! : ) tapi belom beli kueh raya lagi.....!! ke nak buat ?? hmmmmm....

6. oh! oh! i am 24/7 on facebook... oh god! i really memang dah takde kerja kan ??? ah !! LOSER kah aku ini ???? ; )

7. my husband is sitting next to me.. jadi susah nak menulis.. hahaha... now u go away please.. so i can sambung menulis... please... i love u .... : )

8. i am a lil confius dari beberapa cerita yang sangat menipu...

9. oh! oh ! i ate shawarma for berbuka semalam... air flown dari abu dhabi ok... nyam! nyam! sedap....

10. ok! i tiru this dari che det's blog.. so what ?!?!?!?!?!

I am CONFUSED

and so I am ... seriously... orang ni cakap ni.. orang lain cakap another different thing....
I mean saya percaya dia up to this minute but betul ke apa yang saya percaya ?Could she be the person they say she is .... arhghhhhh!! CONFUSED!!!hmmmm.... my advice... open up. tell them the truth ... that's all you can do and have to do... jangan nanti dah terlambat baru nak mengaku..susah tau...

ayuni wants to sit and think

hmmmm.... this has gone too far .. i am not a person yang suka sangat nak revenge - revenge..
bukan i tak nak tolong kawan tapi apa yang i dapat... lagipon ... i was never part of this...
and now i have to cover their backs? I knoe i am a lil outspoken but untuk jatuhkan balik someone else.. that is just not me.. don't get me wrong.. i do hate her but what goes around, comes around. let karma do its work. kita jangan nak jatuhkan orang lain just because orang lain jatuhkan kita. biarlah diaorang sendiri terima balasan. because i just tak nak if people cakap i ni berdendam dengan orang because i tak. i hate someone and that's it. eventhough i know mmg dari first time i tengok dia.. she is bad news. but arggghhhhh!!! persetankan lah... let her be. and let me be me.

10 or Less..

10 things i love:
1. my zull
2. my wedding ring
3. my laptop
4. my car (although now my husband's using it )
5. my books
6. my memories
7. smell of the rain
8. writing
9. smell of coffee
10. smell of freshly mowed grass

10 things i wish i have
1. a sony viao
2. longer legs
3. a new handphone
4. a good paying job
5. a beautiful home
6. an award winning script in my hand
7. longer hair
8. a nicer body.. (?)
9. a new car
10.

10 things i hate
1. backstabbers
2. fake smiles
3. action packed movies
4. crowded places
5. argue with my husband
6. getting drunk
7. wake up in the morning
8. saying goodbye
9.
10.

10 books i love
1. No greater Love - Danielle Steel
2. Last Chance Saloon - Marian Keyes
3. Street Lawyer - John Grisham
4. Are you there God? It's Me Margaret - Judy Blume
5. Fresh As a Daisy - Valerie-ann Baglietto
6. Shopaholic - Sophie Kinsella
7. The Gift - Danielle Steel
8. Pearl
9. Divine Secrets of the YaYa Sisterhood
10. Jewel - Danielle Steel

10 Movies I Love
1. My Bestfriend's Wedding
2. Serendipity
3. PS I LOVE U
4. Ten Thing I Hate About You
5. CINTA
6. Romeo & Juliet
7. Wedding Planner
8. Notting Hill
9. Pretty Women
10. Bettle Juice

10 Most Played Songs
1. I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
2. Masih - Flop Poppy
3. Sempurna - Andra and The Backbone
4. Sendiri Aku - Black Coffee Honey
5. Berharap Kau Kembali - J ROck
6. Love You Lately - Daniel Powter
7. Bad Day - Daniel Powter
8. Everything - Micheal Buble
9. Bayang - Bayang Ilusi - Anggun
10. Wonderful Tonight - Eric Clapton

10 Most Favorite People
1. Zull
2. Aifa
3. Tini
4. Tasha
5. Geegee
6. Ellie Suriaty
7. Sheena
8. Lily Nordin ( u're still my favorite !! : P )
9. Odie
10. Yan

10 Places I want to go
1. Paris
2. New York City
3. London
4. Pulau Perhentian
5. Bali ( again!! )
6. New Zealand
7. Makkah
8. Aberdeen , Scotland
9. Hawaii
10. HOLLYWOOD

to be mature...

to know if someone is mature is not just through their attitude but also their way of thinking..
i read a blog somewhere talking about being mature... well.. if trashing other people or stabbing their coworkers is a form of maturity...guess.. i am not yet matured enough to be in the industry of bad people and stupid corporations...
i am really pissed with what some people might do to be on top... it sux tau... u trusted them... u be nice to them but hey !u just got stab in the back...
ok.... so back to being mature. I think I am mature enough to tell the difference between a good fren and a not so good fren... i've been both. but it was a long time ago. I learn my lesson. So.. sesiapa yang terasa nak play me back.. simpan je lah cita - cita tu...
watever u did... i've done it before. that is why i am more mature than you.. who wears a "winnie the pooh" jeans and a wallet that resembles a racoon(?)... hahhahaha... mature lah sangat...

laters people.
hug.hug.kiss.kiss.

aku asyik duduk dan berfikir... kenapa?mengapa?apa yang menyebabkan? aku dah penat berfikir.. aku rasa aku dah cukup memberikan segalanya pada dia tapi tetap aku rasa seperti ada sesuatu yang tak cukup... yang aku rasa aku belum berikan... aku yang rasa macam tu atau memang betul maseh belum mencukupi segala apa yang aku berikan.. aku runsing lah gini... aku sayang dia tapi hati ini sering sahaja mengatakan yang sebaliknya... tapi tak mungkin.... dia lah segalanya buat ku... sampai nak tidur malam pun aku maseh lagi perlu untuk dia ada disisikan.. aku perlu tahu yang dia selamat dan dia ada bersamaku baru aku boleh tidur.. biarah macam mana mengantuk pun .. aku perlu ada dia.. setiap hari aku risau kalau dia pulang lewat.. bukan risau kalau dia jumpa orang lain atau pergi buat benda jahat.. aku risau kalau dia belom balik... sesuatu yang buruk menimpanya.. aku takut kalau dia pergi meninggalkan aku tanpa memberi peluang aku memohon maaf keatas apa sahaja kesilapan ku... aku ni paranoid ? mungkin juga... tapi yang pastinya aku amat menyayanginya dirinya sampai aku kadangkala bosan dengan diriku sendiri... kerna aku tidak boleh melakukan apa - apa melainkan dia ada bersama ku... bodoh kah aku ? atau aku sememangnya seorang yang terlalu dependent terhadap seseorang yang lain ? aku runsing. aku bingung. aku tak tahu kenapa aku menjadi sebegini rupa... pelik sangat. dulu aku tak macam ni. dia menyukai aku kerana aku seorang berdikari. aku seorang yang tabah. aku tak mcam perempuan lain. tapi kini setelah bergelar isteri. aku jadi lemah. aku perlukan dia setiap saat dalam hidupku ini . tapi salah kah begitu ??? dia..suamiku dan aku amat menyayanginya.

something interesting

A Friend forwarded this to me and i find interesting it for me to put it here...

Beware the Back-Stabbing Coworkers

( Nice title eyh.. ?? ; ) )

Workplace saboteurs come in several types, including:

• Belittlers, who hurl put-downs, demeaning remarks and disparaging comments.
• Credit thieves, who steal your ideas and grab the glory when a project is successful.
• Finger pointers, who pin the blame on others when the project goes wrong.
• Rumor-mongers, stirring up drama by spreading lies and half-truths that destroy reputations.
• Slackers, who shirk responsibility and foist duties onto others.
• Scorched-earth managers, who will undermine or even fire a smart, capable worker when they feel threatened by brains and talent.

and so... i think i've met my share of back stabbers of the years...and they did actually cost me my job but I am always honest in doing my work and I work hard but not for other people. I work for me. For my satisfaction and if I don't like what I see or hear.. I'll say it out loud. Is it wrong ? I don't think so... but for some... they want to on be top and stay there. By being a backstabber they can guarantee their own life and job.

This is stupid .. I know. but I like reading about it and knowing that I am right all along.. This is my life and I am happy with it. I don't need big corporation to turn me into something BIG.I don't need a fairy godmother.. I can do it myself. : )