Last POST before RAYA

Dear people...

This will be my last post before hari raya.
I will continue all my post after hari raya ok...
well.. maybe after sembahyang raya lah.. but at the mo.. i have tons to do..
so SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all.
MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN. : )

pS: u guys pun cukup cukup lah nak mengganggu hidup orang buat beberapa hari k.

What A Life to lead

I am tired. Baru sehari firing people all over and m tired of it. P , now i understand why you kept quiet. I shouldn't have pushed u n El too hard to make any statement. I'm tried lah. Lagi 2-3 hari nak raya kita duk sibuk menfire orang kan... ahahhahahahaha... anyhow. this is not what this post is about. Lets just get down to biz k.

It is so weird to be part of this industry. At first I thought it was cool but its not. I don't see what is there to be cool about. People back stabbing each other. Making stupid and so untrue statements. always and I say it again ... always use other people to their own advantage. Penat ah gini.... I am an honest person. ( Not trying to masuk bakul n angkat sendiri ) but I tell what I hear or see or read. I don;t like to be a hypocrite about it, because I am not. Kesian I. Selalu kena tipu dengan orang - orang yang suka nak ambil kesempatan.

In this industry. TRUST no one. but yourself. Kalau rasa benda tu salah.Jangan ikut. and kalau gerak hati u cakap U betul then be it that way,tak perlu nak bercampur dengan orang. Tak payah nak jaga hati orang. Jangan sekali - kali beritahu sesiapa tentang apa - apa. lagi- lagi kalau u tengah tulis sebuah cerita. because esok esok cerita tu dah kuar kat TV and ur still writing.

This is not the life I want to lead. NOPE! I dont want , hypocrasy to be my lifestyle. and i dont want to fake my smile and i really don't want to LIE. That is not me. Look , ask my frens. My true frens... I am not like this. I used to be one but please. I am tired of living a LIE.

So.. everybody.. please stop this or i shall reveal the bloody truth yang I tahu. I akan jatuhkan setiap sorang dari kamu semua. Bukan setakat jatuh, tapi terus tersungkur sampai nak bangun pun tak boleh. I was never part of this. and I wish to remain that way.

Thank You.

Ayuni Zamani

10 or Less.. & Angan - angan mat jenin..

People.. people...
i need you guys to read my my two post i mentioned above. Tell me again.. is the first one a wish list or is it just some 10 things i love, i hate, i wish for, i want to be, i love to read, of my favorite people.. apa ni... it wasnt a bloody wish list..
and as for the second post i mentioned... that was a wish list ... did i achieve it ?? YES i did. Kenapa lah ada orang yang bodoh sangat dalam dunia nih?? I really don't understand lah.... stupid! stupid! stupid!

FECK OFF LAH !!

memFIRE balik... : )

To Kak Ayu and Dynie Othman,

Pity both of you, as you all co-operated with someone who responsible for PEMECATAN anda berdua. YES, Maya Elie was the one who always cucuk Boss and Boss' and she also the one who told them, YOU kak Ayu, buat keje luar. Both of the Boss told us. So, who you going to trust, it's up to you now. Now I believe Maya Darina offers both of you to join her company,THAT'S GOOD, wait until both of you died 8000x, if you're lucky enough, the 8001st time Maya Darina will exists (Laugh). Now just relax and think how she make a fool on both of you. Or the easiest way, go and meet that Maya Darina, see if you can meet her.

Ard@Azhar... Regarding what you wrote about me.

1. I am sorry that your english is just so bad.
2. I was fired because your beloved company tak bole terima orang yang pandai macam i and yanie, QUIT. she wasnt fired.
3. yes.. actually i memamng suspect elly yang buat tapi gerak hati i kata.. bukan dia. tapi ur oh-so-best-fren-baru yang bgtau sebab i yang bgtau dia...
4. elly didnt offer me a job because for ur info i bukan baru dalam industri ni.i dah lama and i atually have my own company.

so sorry lah ye. jangan ingat semua orang bodoh macam u . and lain kali please my dear get ur facts right!

thanks.

CONFESSION OF A MORON.....(hillarious!!)

Assalamualaikum,

Dear Maya Molie, Maya Elie, Maya Melia & Maya Darina...

First I would like to say that I'm sorry I didn't answer your calls and messages couple of time before. My 'LAWYER' said I shouldn't response any calls from 'ALL' of you until further notice (which will never come). You will never succeed on making that 'mandrem thingy on me anymore you big fat monster(S). Maybe you already knew about my plan towards 'ALL' of you so that's why you tried to hypnotized me lately,wasn't you?But ADE AKU KESAH?(Laugh).

YES, SURPRISEEE!!!! I'm the SPY.

Owh, here's the other important anouncement for ALL of you Mayas. If you must know, I'm the one who told Zubir everything about you. Yes, that picture also, how nice your brown clothes on the paper. But you like it,wasn't you? YOU WANT FAME, I GAVE YOU FAME ALREADY. For this matter I would like to say sorry to Faizal Tahir(whatever happen, you still my idol :D) and Pierre if these article offended both of you. It's not only just for your own sake, but also hundreds of others. Too bad for Maya Darina and Maya Elie, I already saved all of your pictures, so no need to burden yourself to terminate (again) your accounts. No, it's ok,don't thanks me.

For credits, I would like to express my gratitude to Maya Darina for terkantoi lupe gune suare manje mase call last time, to Bos as he still believe in me eventhough he knows I'm Maya Elie's best-la-sgt bestfriend (yes, you right Maya Darina and Maya Elie, me and him still going to continue the deal). To 'Nenek Kebayan', thanks for your wake up call, even they didn't believe you, you know we at the company believe in you. To mr so-calledhulubalang (if I'm not mistaken), sorry I did kutuk2 you in front of Maya Darina and Maya Elie. It just to make the drama looks REAL, now continue your pursuit on Maya Elie's hutang.

To Kak Ayu and Dynie Othman,

Pity both of you, as you all co-operated with someone who responsible for PEMECATAN anda berdua. YES, Maya Elie was the one who always cucuk Boss and Boss' and she also the one who told them, YOU kak Ayu, buat keje luar. Both of the Boss told us. So, who you going to trust, it's up to you now. Now I believe Maya Darina offers both of you to join her company,THAT'S GOOD, wait until both of you died 8000x, if you're lucky enough, the 8001st time Maya Darina will exists (Laugh). Now just relax and think how she make a fool on both of you. Or the easiest way, go and meet that Maya Darina, see if you can meet her.

This is the most IMPORTANT message for you Maya Elie. WHENEVER & WHEREVER I meet you once again, first thing I'm going to do is 'reward' you with 3 cute punches. 1 for make a fool of my dream and drag 'someone' who I already kicked her out from my life... And also for trying your luck to goda me. Another 1 is a request from 'Nenek Kebayan', and the last 1 is a free gift for you as you succeed on making people's life topsy turvy.

Mark my word, you made a fool on wrong people, so you have to prepare for it. I WILL MAKE YOUR LIFE A HELL any way possible. The article is the first start, more embarrasement for you soon. Owh, No@, no need to thanks me :D

To Pierre,

This is me and 'their problem, never in my intention to provoked you. If I ever talked to you before, believe me every single word was true, but whatever, just hope someday you will wake up and face the reality.

To Mayas,

Every artists will be notified regarding about you and your actions, and now the Boss trying to gather every informations and certain action will be executed by authority only for you. Aww, stop praising me you big fat hairy hand biarch :D

Bitch like you Elie who makes the industry a HELL. Fark that I will not going to let you go just like that. Thanks for your consideration.

Sincerely,

Ard
(The cutest teenage detective :D)

the TRUTH

dear people.. i am about to reveal the truth ....so here goes...

the TRUTH about me:
1. I am a writer. A scriptwriter to be exact but I am not that good. cuma bila penulisan seseorang tu I rasa sangat teruk. I cakap lah. Tak salah bercakap kan ?
2. I got a job at MIG because I asked for it. I emailed MJ and she called me in.
3. It's not that I hadap sangat nak kerja kat MIG but I needed the job because I was dead bored not writing anything for almost a year.
4. I didn't want to mix around with people because I know once, some good comes along, I memang akan berenti dari MIG.
5. YES! I memang tulis untuk company luar selama I bekerja dengan MIG but hey! I siapkan jugak all my work kan ?
6. I diberhentikan dari MIG sebab MJ cakap diaorang nak cut overhead. FINE BY ME! at least I can stay home kan ?
7. I am not SAD or DEPRESSED that I diberhentikan sebab like I said I tak hadap sangat kot kerja kat sana.
8. Honestly , I memang tak suka AIN sejak I masuk kerja lagi. I tak suka dia memang tanpa sebab. Dia tak buat salah pun dengan I but I am like that. Sekali I tengok muka seseorang, I dah boleh baca sama ada dia OK or NOT. In my book. She's not. NO offence, dia licik, boleh buat orang percaya dia tapi.... last-last I sedar jugak. Gerak hati awal I memang dah cakap jangan kawan dengan dia. Menyesal? Sedikit ....
9. I say what I want to say. Elly told me MJ cakap I ni rebellious. Memang I macam tu. Kalau I tak suka something I tunjuk.
10. I am actually a nice person but I don't like people messing around with me. I tak suka nak jaga sangat hati orang lain. Don't want to be friends with me ? Say it to my face lah !

TRUTH about Elly :
1. I am not that close to her. She only came to me when she sedar that whatever I said was true.
2. I was actually angry at her, because I know that she is some sort of a spy jugak.
3. I know the real story about her and I really know that whatever the press is saying about her is soooooooo not true.
4. YES! I was annoyed with her for always talking about P all day long at the office. So u're close to him. I don't really wanna know about it.
5. and YES! I also think that she is a lil "gila glamour" kot... wanting to follow on all the road tour and all....
6. I really don't know why she was transfered downstairs but what I actually thought was, since I so like to turun bawah, MJ wants her to stay downstairs and report to her of whatever I did masa kat bawah ... true?
7. She is also a good writer. So it's MIGs lost that they fail to see that.
8. Elly silap trust orang. Not to say that she shud have trusted me but ....
9.Elly is a strong person. She is. Don't mess with her jugak...
10. Elly is a nice person. Just like me. WE do our own thing and let us be...

The TRUTH about AIN.
1. Ain is a nobody. but she will do anything to be a somebody. Even if that means to stab people along way.
2. Ain has got a way to make people trust her by saying something like...I trust you. That's why I'm telling you this.
3. Her nickname of nenek kebayan was given by yanie and me. because she does look a lil like a witch not because of her perangai. Well... part of it anyway...
4. Ain cannot ..and I mean cannot terima kritikan dengan baik. As a fellow writer, byk kali i pointed out her mistakes but there's always an excuse for it.
5. I know that all she wants is just to be a good person. but to be good you have to start as a good person, not the other way around.
6. Ain also has got a way of twisting peoples word around. I told her that I was writing for another company and she told me, she heard it from another person. Stupid eyh? I think I can remember what I said...
7. I think Ain is a "Jolly Girl"... I think...
8. Ain always like to act as if she's naive and innocent but she is not. I think she knows more about so many things than me but like I said she likes to act naive and innocent.
9. YES! She does wear a Winnie the POOH jeans... and I was like.. you make tons of money and ... arghhhhhhh!!! Kelakar kan ?
10. She is not a nice person. Why do I say that ? Because I know. She is not.

So people... I am tired of typing. I will later write some more truth about some other things yang I tak boleh reveal kat sini. So tunggu k. Maybe lepas raya ke....

Selamat Hari Raya Friends. Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Pelik lah...

I just tak faham kenapa diaorang ni tak habis - abis lagi nak buat jahat dengan orang lain... cukup lah... puasa dah nak abih.. next week dah nak raya... sudah sudah lah ok....korang semua ni... sekali aku sebrkan benda yang sebenarnya baru korang tahu langit tu tinggi atau rendah... please lah.. eventhough i was never part of this.. but i am soooooo sangat fed up dengan apa yang sedang berlaku... so before korang semua menyesal... please leave my frens alone...

snippets - KU

1. i read a fren's blog.. it was depressing.. i thought i'm the one with problems but hell! hers are bigger...

2. love is a beautiful thing .. jangan lah nak sengsara sebab nya... aku pun tak faham kenapa ada orang yang terlalu naif tentang hal - hal ini...

3. percintaan adalah satu perjalanan yang sangat indah.... jangan lah sebab terlalu nak bercinta sangat kita jadi lupa tentang kehidupan sebenar...

4. bila kita mencintai seseorang itu.. kita harus tahu bahawa orang itu juga mencintai kita sebagaimana kita mencintai mereka...

5. cinta akan hilang serinya bila kita jadi terlalu obses dengan cinta dan orang yang kita cintai..

6. once bila kita rasa cinta itu bukan milik kita lagi... just take a deep breath, pusing and walk away from it.. jangan nak paksa diri...

OH NO!! I've been UNINVITED

Oh goodness me... I have been UNINVITED from reading someone's blog.... kah!kah!kah! Oh well... itu menunjukkan yang dia adalah seorang yang penakut. Kalau takut dilambung ombak, jangan berumah ditepi pantai, Kalau takut nak kena kritik, Jaga lah sikit perangai... hmmm... I will write again later... tengah ketandusan IDEA ni... laters.

the OTHER side of Ayuni

Hey .. I have another BLOG that's entirely for my writings..
My stories, my poetry..
If you wanna see the OTHER side of ME... email me ur email add so that I can invite u.. takmo lah orang - orang yang tak sepatutnya baca my cerita.. nanti kena CURI susah... :)
go to http://ayuniwrites.blogspot.com

angan - angan mat jenin ( 2 )

Ok... here it is, I did answered some Qs but I will not put it all in here, I will only put what is relevent ok :

February 25th 2002, 0020 hrs

....What are my future plans?
Obviously to further my studies in Mass Comm or Law at UiTM or UIA. To further to Richmond after my diploma. To find a job and be a someone. To find ***** ( sorry can't put his name here) and hope am still in love with him ( which i'm not). to be settled down by 2011.

Hahahhaha... so it's not really a wish list, more like a plan actually kan? So... did I achieve what I wrote here.

1. I did further my studies in Mass Comm at UiTM.
2. I didn't go to Richmond. It's too bloody expensive and I actually found a job after my diploma.
3. I found a job, a few actually. I became a someone. Well, at least part of the entertainment industry knows me , right ??
4. I did found him, we were together for 2 weeks and then he broke up with me. Stupid HIM !!!
5. I am married 2 1/2 months ago. So I achieve that ...

So... my wish list is mine. whether or not it can be realised, is up to me. Don't question it. I am my own person.... what if I question somebody's wish list....

Cheers.
Ayuni Zamani.

angan - angan mat jenin

I made a wish list.. someone question it... i mean... when i was 18, i made a wish list. I will look for it in my boxes. I'll put it here. and we'll see how much have i achieved ok? I am not the type to stop at somebody's comment.. I will achieve what I want.

At least I work my way up. Unlike some people yang mengipas bontot orang lain untuk jadi seseorang yang lain. Kita semua dilahirkan dengan akal yang sempurna. tetapi sesetengah orang yang tak sabar akan menggunakan akal yang diberikan dengan cara yang jahat....

So.. I will write again.

Mat jenin or not... we'll see ...

Cheers.
Ayuni Zamani

My writer's block is GONE

Hey everybody.. I am so excited sekarang ni... I have started writing again.. and I gotta this is one of the best after Peliknya Cinta and Bila Hujan... I am so happy. I'm hoping that someone will like this story i'm writing ... cross your fingers everybody.... Ayuni Zamani is coming out, facing the WORLD!! : )

lil snippets

1. I think the blog yang dibuat - buat oleh orang tertentu untuk menghentam ellie is sangat jahat. Look, I kenal Ellie. I know how she is... dia tak jahat lah ok... kita semua cari makan dalam industri ni. Kalau takut sangat korang jatuh tersungkur jangan lah nak jatuhkan orang lain pula...

2. Isu politik kat negara kita ni makin lama , makin menbosankan... so i have decided not to care about it anymore.. baik layan "telenovela" terbaik 2008 ni..

3. Telenovela yang ditulis oleh seorang scriptwriter dan director yang masih belom boleh dikatakan tersohor ni nampaknya semakin best.. mungkin lepas ni mereka akan jadi tersohor kot.. kahkahkah....

4. I am still having a writer's block.. but no worries. I am going to write the best script i can think of to lawan the "telenovela" terbaik ni...

5. Ada orang dapat bonus... mungkin sebab dia yang menjadi dalang dalam menjatuhkan orang lain... oh well! what goes around.. comes around.. setakat nak mereka - reka cerita sebab you have no life of your own,... i think.. i can do better....

6. Kenapa orang suka sangat nak mengampu pihak atasan? Jawapan dia.... sebab dia insecure. Dia takut boss akan suka dengan orang lain yang lagi bagus dari dia... itu lah jawapan nya !!

7. Bulan puasa dah nak habis.. Lepas ni RAYA. Lepas Raya... I will have lotsa jobs.. YAY!!!
( insya-ALLAH ).. at least.. I tak menjual maruah diri i untuk dapat bonus.... HAH !

8. Sebuah company yang jahat akan terima balasannya. Bila 40 kali orang sebut, akan menjadi satu doa. Doa orang - orang teraniaya ni selalunya dimakbulkan. So all together now, " Company yang suka aniaya orang akan jatuh bankrap..dan staff dia takkan dapat BONUS lagi dah " Amin..

9. Hmmmm..... I think my luck will change for the better next year. I have to work hard and buang all the anasir - anasir jahat... Industri ni akan jadi lebih baik tanpa orang - orang seperti nenek kebayan dan seorang director yang gila talak.. ahakas,...

lil snippets..

1. i am so penat from puasa..

2. life is just not normal... because i'm waking up early than usual....

3. m watching/hearing/ reading the best telenovela ever... hahahhaha.... tapi tak tau lah kalau ini semua gimmik untuk their next filem... kalau menang award lah telenovela ni ... i will give it the best script kot... hahahhahahahahahaha... sebab the cerita sangat berkait eventhough its not real... kahkahkah.....

4. m not writing anything new sebab i takde idea... tapi i ada beberapa idea yang bermain dalam kepala cuma belom keluar je...

5. raya dah nak dekat..YAY !! : ) tapi belom beli kueh raya lagi.....!! ke nak buat ?? hmmmmm....

6. oh! oh! i am 24/7 on facebook... oh god! i really memang dah takde kerja kan ??? ah !! LOSER kah aku ini ???? ; )

7. my husband is sitting next to me.. jadi susah nak menulis.. hahaha... now u go away please.. so i can sambung menulis... please... i love u .... : )

8. i am a lil confius dari beberapa cerita yang sangat menipu...

9. oh! oh ! i ate shawarma for berbuka semalam... air flown dari abu dhabi ok... nyam! nyam! sedap....

10. ok! i tiru this dari che det's blog.. so what ?!?!?!?!?!

I am CONFUSED

and so I am ... seriously... orang ni cakap ni.. orang lain cakap another different thing....
I mean saya percaya dia up to this minute but betul ke apa yang saya percaya ?Could she be the person they say she is .... arhghhhhh!! CONFUSED!!!hmmmm.... my advice... open up. tell them the truth ... that's all you can do and have to do... jangan nanti dah terlambat baru nak mengaku..susah tau...

ayuni wants to sit and think

hmmmm.... this has gone too far .. i am not a person yang suka sangat nak revenge - revenge..
bukan i tak nak tolong kawan tapi apa yang i dapat... lagipon ... i was never part of this...
and now i have to cover their backs? I knoe i am a lil outspoken but untuk jatuhkan balik someone else.. that is just not me.. don't get me wrong.. i do hate her but what goes around, comes around. let karma do its work. kita jangan nak jatuhkan orang lain just because orang lain jatuhkan kita. biarlah diaorang sendiri terima balasan. because i just tak nak if people cakap i ni berdendam dengan orang because i tak. i hate someone and that's it. eventhough i know mmg dari first time i tengok dia.. she is bad news. but arggghhhhh!!! persetankan lah... let her be. and let me be me.

10 or Less..

10 things i love:
1. my zull
2. my wedding ring
3. my laptop
4. my car (although now my husband's using it )
5. my books
6. my memories
7. smell of the rain
8. writing
9. smell of coffee
10. smell of freshly mowed grass

10 things i wish i have
1. a sony viao
2. longer legs
3. a new handphone
4. a good paying job
5. a beautiful home
6. an award winning script in my hand
7. longer hair
8. a nicer body.. (?)
9. a new car
10.

10 things i hate
1. backstabbers
2. fake smiles
3. action packed movies
4. crowded places
5. argue with my husband
6. getting drunk
7. wake up in the morning
8. saying goodbye
9.
10.

10 books i love
1. No greater Love - Danielle Steel
2. Last Chance Saloon - Marian Keyes
3. Street Lawyer - John Grisham
4. Are you there God? It's Me Margaret - Judy Blume
5. Fresh As a Daisy - Valerie-ann Baglietto
6. Shopaholic - Sophie Kinsella
7. The Gift - Danielle Steel
8. Pearl
9. Divine Secrets of the YaYa Sisterhood
10. Jewel - Danielle Steel

10 Movies I Love
1. My Bestfriend's Wedding
2. Serendipity
3. PS I LOVE U
4. Ten Thing I Hate About You
5. CINTA
6. Romeo & Juliet
7. Wedding Planner
8. Notting Hill
9. Pretty Women
10. Bettle Juice

10 Most Played Songs
1. I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
2. Masih - Flop Poppy
3. Sempurna - Andra and The Backbone
4. Sendiri Aku - Black Coffee Honey
5. Berharap Kau Kembali - J ROck
6. Love You Lately - Daniel Powter
7. Bad Day - Daniel Powter
8. Everything - Micheal Buble
9. Bayang - Bayang Ilusi - Anggun
10. Wonderful Tonight - Eric Clapton

10 Most Favorite People
1. Zull
2. Aifa
3. Tini
4. Tasha
5. Geegee
6. Ellie Suriaty
7. Sheena
8. Lily Nordin ( u're still my favorite !! : P )
9. Odie
10. Yan

10 Places I want to go
1. Paris
2. New York City
3. London
4. Pulau Perhentian
5. Bali ( again!! )
6. New Zealand
7. Makkah
8. Aberdeen , Scotland
9. Hawaii
10. HOLLYWOOD

to be mature...

to know if someone is mature is not just through their attitude but also their way of thinking..
i read a blog somewhere talking about being mature... well.. if trashing other people or stabbing their coworkers is a form of maturity...guess.. i am not yet matured enough to be in the industry of bad people and stupid corporations...
i am really pissed with what some people might do to be on top... it sux tau... u trusted them... u be nice to them but hey !u just got stab in the back...
ok.... so back to being mature. I think I am mature enough to tell the difference between a good fren and a not so good fren... i've been both. but it was a long time ago. I learn my lesson. So.. sesiapa yang terasa nak play me back.. simpan je lah cita - cita tu...
watever u did... i've done it before. that is why i am more mature than you.. who wears a "winnie the pooh" jeans and a wallet that resembles a racoon(?)... hahhahaha... mature lah sangat...

laters people.
hug.hug.kiss.kiss.

aku asyik duduk dan berfikir... kenapa?mengapa?apa yang menyebabkan? aku dah penat berfikir.. aku rasa aku dah cukup memberikan segalanya pada dia tapi tetap aku rasa seperti ada sesuatu yang tak cukup... yang aku rasa aku belum berikan... aku yang rasa macam tu atau memang betul maseh belum mencukupi segala apa yang aku berikan.. aku runsing lah gini... aku sayang dia tapi hati ini sering sahaja mengatakan yang sebaliknya... tapi tak mungkin.... dia lah segalanya buat ku... sampai nak tidur malam pun aku maseh lagi perlu untuk dia ada disisikan.. aku perlu tahu yang dia selamat dan dia ada bersamaku baru aku boleh tidur.. biarah macam mana mengantuk pun .. aku perlu ada dia.. setiap hari aku risau kalau dia pulang lewat.. bukan risau kalau dia jumpa orang lain atau pergi buat benda jahat.. aku risau kalau dia belom balik... sesuatu yang buruk menimpanya.. aku takut kalau dia pergi meninggalkan aku tanpa memberi peluang aku memohon maaf keatas apa sahaja kesilapan ku... aku ni paranoid ? mungkin juga... tapi yang pastinya aku amat menyayanginya dirinya sampai aku kadangkala bosan dengan diriku sendiri... kerna aku tidak boleh melakukan apa - apa melainkan dia ada bersama ku... bodoh kah aku ? atau aku sememangnya seorang yang terlalu dependent terhadap seseorang yang lain ? aku runsing. aku bingung. aku tak tahu kenapa aku menjadi sebegini rupa... pelik sangat. dulu aku tak macam ni. dia menyukai aku kerana aku seorang berdikari. aku seorang yang tabah. aku tak mcam perempuan lain. tapi kini setelah bergelar isteri. aku jadi lemah. aku perlukan dia setiap saat dalam hidupku ini . tapi salah kah begitu ??? dia..suamiku dan aku amat menyayanginya.

something interesting

A Friend forwarded this to me and i find interesting it for me to put it here...

Beware the Back-Stabbing Coworkers

( Nice title eyh.. ?? ; ) )

Workplace saboteurs come in several types, including:

• Belittlers, who hurl put-downs, demeaning remarks and disparaging comments.
• Credit thieves, who steal your ideas and grab the glory when a project is successful.
• Finger pointers, who pin the blame on others when the project goes wrong.
• Rumor-mongers, stirring up drama by spreading lies and half-truths that destroy reputations.
• Slackers, who shirk responsibility and foist duties onto others.
• Scorched-earth managers, who will undermine or even fire a smart, capable worker when they feel threatened by brains and talent.

and so... i think i've met my share of back stabbers of the years...and they did actually cost me my job but I am always honest in doing my work and I work hard but not for other people. I work for me. For my satisfaction and if I don't like what I see or hear.. I'll say it out loud. Is it wrong ? I don't think so... but for some... they want to on be top and stay there. By being a backstabber they can guarantee their own life and job.

This is stupid .. I know. but I like reading about it and knowing that I am right all along.. This is my life and I am happy with it. I don't need big corporation to turn me into something BIG.I don't need a fairy godmother.. I can do it myself. : )

how i feel

this sux lah .. i can 't write about how i really feel anymore.. i use to write about my feelings.. my darkest deepest secrets and my emotions but now i can't.. i 'm afraid if i write about how i really feel and if my husband reads it.. it will hurt him... oh god! this is depressing.. i really don't want to hurt him.. but keeping evrything bottled inside me will actually make me sick to my stomach..
i am so depressed... i'm having mixed emotions.. i can't think straight... i can't do anything right anymore... i am just so stressed out...
whoa! i wish i can write about things that doesn't matter but being a scriptwriter all of that has gone to my scripts.. and all is left is my true feelings that i can't actually let out... its driving me crazy but i have to learn n live with it...