i'm FREE!!

hari ni aku dah bebas dari my stupid writer's block...
sebenarnya dari semalam lepas dapat menulis balik dalam blog yang dah lama aku tinggalkan ni..
i am now working on a story yang for me is menarik jugak lah...
after two weeks memerah otak dan memaksa tangan ni menaip..
akhirnya... " I'm BACK!!! "
hmmm...after reading back my post semalam...
terasa pulak lah diri ni macam dah tua..
kah!kah!kah!
tapi nak buat camner kan..
i am getting older bukannya tiap tahun makin muda kan??
and I am going to have more responsibilities lepas ni...
come august .. i will be a mom...
so memang tak dapat lah nak lepak sampai awal pagi kat kedai mamak...kan?
anyhow... i got to go... nak sambung menyiapkan my sinopsis...
laters people...

aku.

aku kini bukan lagi aku yang dulu...
dulu aku berani. dulu aku yakin .
bukan lah nak kata sekarang ni aku ni penakut dan tak yakin dengan diri ku..
tapi aku tahu aku dah berubah....
aku dah tak gelabah nak bersuka ria...
aku dah tak kisah pasal concert malam merdeka atau sambutan tahun baru...
mungkin kerna aku kini sudah berpunya..??
tak jugak tapi.. aku dapat rasakan yang aku ini makin dewasa..
hah! orang yang dah dewasa pun ada yang gila nak pergi concert jugak..
kenapa aku tak? lainkah aku ini?
walaupunbegitu...
aku rindu dengan kehidupan ku dulu...
kehidupan ku yang tidak memandang kebelakang mahupun kehadapan..
i live for the moment.. masa tu lah...
aku look forward nak pergi rock the world..
nak overnight kat bukit bintang..
aku hidup supaya diterima manusia manusia yang popular...kah!kah!kah!
masa tu kanak kanak lagi lah...
tapi aku tetap merindui diriku yang dulu...
aku rindu nak melepak dengan kawan kawan ku kat kedai mamak....aku rindu bila takde duit..
share roti canai and rokok winston light...
best kan kawan kawan?
masa tu... nothing matters..
sekarang ni... aku dah makin gemuk.. ( oh god! )
setiap hari menanti anakku menendang supaya ku tahu yang dia sedang membesar didalam ku...
aku rindukan hidupku yang lama tapi aku pasti yang akan datang mesti lagi best ....
kawan kawan.. aku rindukan korang... korang rindu aku ?

after so long....

hmmmm..... it has been a while since i last blog kan??
well... i've been ok. i'm getting fat.. :P
and guess what? I felt my lil boy move last nite...
it was so..... COOL.... he was like knocking or kicking me..
telling me.. " hey mummy! i'm here.. in your tummy..."
I actually cried when i felt it...
and i'm so happy... y'know when things aren't as good as i expect it to be...
and he made me happy....
the joys of being pregnant...
anyways.... i am now 17 weeks pregnant...
and i have a long way more to go...
and i got to go now... nak siapkan kerja...

laters.

Pregnant and Not Sleeping

I am now 10 weeks into my pregnancy and guess what? I can't sleep. it sucks...I am so bloody tired all the time but I can't SLEEP!! Ini semua dibuktikan dengan a 2.30 am call to Elly ajak dia keluar makan.. Yeap! 2.30 am.. best kan? Pregnant pun nak berembun but what to do.. I can't sleep at all... Well bila siang je senang sangat nak tido but bile malam..Mata ni memang takkan tutup...Anyways.. I am so excited about my pregnancy..
I am happy that at last I am gonna be a mommy....

Okies... masri kita tulis about something else plak...I am now developing some ideas untuk a new drama series ..It's tiring jugak sebab I have all this ideas but I can't seem to put it on paper...So.. its a good thing jugak that I can't sleep because I write better at night cuma sekarang ni tension bila idea takmo kuar!!!!

Owh well... I think that's all...
Nanti later tulis lagi k....

Laters.

Ayuni Writes

and so i have not been writing here for quite a while...
i mean.... there's nothing really for me to rant about...
oh! Happy New Year!! Yay!!
and oh! I have deleted my other blog..
so don't bother checking it....
y?? for no reason actually... I mean yang ini pon tak ter-update...
lagi nak maintain 2 blog...

anyways... I think life is not that bad..
I just don't feel well for the past week or so...
yeah! yeah! i know.. I am PREGNANT kan?
I should feel this way.. so stop whining like a baby...

Hmmmm..... i feel like I miss someone or something...
I just don't feel whole anymore..
I mean.. I am happy. I love my hubby. I love the baby growing inside me...
but I feel a lil empty...I don't know why...
I just can't put a finger on anything....

I guess... I miss working kot...
y'know waking up with a purpose...
going to the office and do absolutely nothing
but at least i'm not at home...

or maybe.. I miss having friends..
the only other person that i talk to besides my hubby is Elly..
Itu pun... sorry Elly. kadang tu I takde kredit nak balas ur sms
and sometimes time u call i don't feel like talking
but I miss u.
and I miss having friends...
and maybe I miss one particular friend...

owh well.... I'd better go...

Laters.

6 WEEKS..

Hey all...

Just nak share dengan u guys my first scan...
My pregnancy is already into six weeks and I am so happy...

Anyhow... itu je nak tulis for today...

Laters

Early Saturday...

It's been a while since I wrote here.. bukan apa.. nothing wahhhh! happened yang boleh membuatkan saya untuk menulis. Ye lah.. takkan tiap hari nak tulis about me being pregnant kan? semacam tak best lah pulak.. anyhow.. i've been in bed for the past week. had a terrible flu and felt sick to the stomach. alasannya mudah...hormone berubah.. hahahaha... see.. again i'm writing about being pregnant...

anyways, elly suggested that i apply for the junior writer post at astro. hmmm... fikiran berkecamuk gak.. have been thinking about it but last-last i decided not to. I have been there. I mean working for a company as a scriptwriter. As a writer.. i feel the need to have the freedom to write what I want and how I want. Bukanlah nak kata my previous bosses tak memberikan kebebasan tapi .... tak cukup...saya ini sedikit susah menerima kritikan walaupun I will always listen to it tapi bila kerja jalan tapi mulut mengomel bukan-bukan.. macam tak best kan?

I feel I work better on my own time. Bila rasa nak tulis.. kita tulis. Bila rasa nak tido kita tido.. Senang gitu. But alhamdulillah... all my works selalunya on time. I'm good at meeting deadlines..

So.. Insya-Allah ..come new year.. I will again start my works yang dah lama terbengkalai. I will not give any excuses to myself anymore.. ( and yes! to u jugak elly ..hehehe... :P )

Well.. i got to go... got emails to check. n nak baca balik my script yang masih lagi di SCENE 53 tu..

Laters.