after so long....

hmmmm..... it has been a while since i last blog kan??
well... i've been ok. i'm getting fat.. :P
and guess what? I felt my lil boy move last nite...
it was so..... COOL.... he was like knocking or kicking me..
telling me.. " hey mummy! i'm here.. in your tummy..."
I actually cried when i felt it...
and i'm so happy... y'know when things aren't as good as i expect it to be...
and he made me happy....
the joys of being pregnant...
anyways.... i am now 17 weeks pregnant...
and i have a long way more to go...
and i got to go now... nak siapkan kerja...

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Pregnant and Not Sleeping

I am now 10 weeks into my pregnancy and guess what? I can't sleep. it sucks...I am so bloody tired all the time but I can't SLEEP!! Ini semua dibuktikan dengan a 2.30 am call to Elly ajak dia keluar makan.. Yeap! 2.30 am.. best kan? Pregnant pun nak berembun but what to do.. I can't sleep at all... Well bila siang je senang sangat nak tido but bile malam..Mata ni memang takkan tutup...Anyways.. I am so excited about my pregnancy..
I am happy that at last I am gonna be a mommy....

Okies... masri kita tulis about something else plak...I am now developing some ideas untuk a new drama series ..It's tiring jugak sebab I have all this ideas but I can't seem to put it on paper...So.. its a good thing jugak that I can't sleep because I write better at night cuma sekarang ni tension bila idea takmo kuar!!!!

Owh well... I think that's all...
Nanti later tulis lagi k....

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Ayuni Writes

and so i have not been writing here for quite a while...
i mean.... there's nothing really for me to rant about...
oh! Happy New Year!! Yay!!
and oh! I have deleted my other blog..
so don't bother checking it....
y?? for no reason actually... I mean yang ini pon tak ter-update...
lagi nak maintain 2 blog...

anyways... I think life is not that bad..
I just don't feel well for the past week or so...
yeah! yeah! i know.. I am PREGNANT kan?
I should feel this way.. so stop whining like a baby...

Hmmmm..... i feel like I miss someone or something...
I just don't feel whole anymore..
I mean.. I am happy. I love my hubby. I love the baby growing inside me...
but I feel a lil empty...I don't know why...
I just can't put a finger on anything....

I guess... I miss working kot...
y'know waking up with a purpose...
going to the office and do absolutely nothing
but at least i'm not at home...

or maybe.. I miss having friends..
the only other person that i talk to besides my hubby is Elly..
Itu pun... sorry Elly. kadang tu I takde kredit nak balas ur sms
and sometimes time u call i don't feel like talking
but I miss u.
and I miss having friends...
and maybe I miss one particular friend...

owh well.... I'd better go...

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6 WEEKS..

Hey all...

Just nak share dengan u guys my first scan...
My pregnancy is already into six weeks and I am so happy...

Anyhow... itu je nak tulis for today...

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Early Saturday...

It's been a while since I wrote here.. bukan apa.. nothing wahhhh! happened yang boleh membuatkan saya untuk menulis. Ye lah.. takkan tiap hari nak tulis about me being pregnant kan? semacam tak best lah pulak.. anyhow.. i've been in bed for the past week. had a terrible flu and felt sick to the stomach. alasannya mudah...hormone berubah.. hahahaha... see.. again i'm writing about being pregnant...

anyways, elly suggested that i apply for the junior writer post at astro. hmmm... fikiran berkecamuk gak.. have been thinking about it but last-last i decided not to. I have been there. I mean working for a company as a scriptwriter. As a writer.. i feel the need to have the freedom to write what I want and how I want. Bukanlah nak kata my previous bosses tak memberikan kebebasan tapi .... tak cukup...saya ini sedikit susah menerima kritikan walaupun I will always listen to it tapi bila kerja jalan tapi mulut mengomel bukan-bukan.. macam tak best kan?

I feel I work better on my own time. Bila rasa nak tulis.. kita tulis. Bila rasa nak tido kita tido.. Senang gitu. But alhamdulillah... all my works selalunya on time. I'm good at meeting deadlines..

So.. Insya-Allah ..come new year.. I will again start my works yang dah lama terbengkalai. I will not give any excuses to myself anymore.. ( and yes! to u jugak elly ..hehehe... :P )

Well.. i got to go... got emails to check. n nak baca balik my script yang masih lagi di SCENE 53 tu..

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Friday

I am so stuck right now. I can't seem to write anything just yet. Gosh! Itu lah.. hari tu dah elok dapat my rhythm balik I stopped.. now I have to start all over again.. anyhow.. I am still just at home. Am not watching any movies yet today as I am actually a lil sleepy. ( Being pregnant is cool.. asik dapat tido.. *wink*)

Anyhow.. read Nadia's blog about her love life and all. I mean c'monlah. When someone throws you out of their life.Forget that person and when that person wants you back. Just shut the door in his face. He was never there for you why should you wanna go running up to him everytime he feels he wants you back? untuk apa ? Kepuasan diri? Apa yang you dapat? A lil something that he doesn't want to be part of but he still wants you over and over again? BULLSHIT lah!

I mean I went through that a long time ago. I threw him away and then I wanted him back but he refuse to give in. He even told me to move on because he doesn't want me anymore. Sedey. I know but I moved on because why I want to mengharapkan pada someone yang dah tak nak kat kita kan?

Look. Love is complicated. It is so very hard to understand tapi jangan lah main kan perasaan orang just because u want some time on ur own but at the same time u also want that person to hang on to u. Its cruel. You need your space but also need to wanted. STUPID!!!

Janganlah buat macam tu. U'll end up alone. Jangan jadi jahat lah.

Hmmm.... pada orang itu... Forget whatever happened. I know it was beautiful but u don't deserve her. She stood by you but what did you do to her when she needed you the most? You wrote her a bloody cheque and tell her to keep quiet? You are so not matured. Nope. Sooooo not matured...

Anyways.. I got to go.. Nak tido lah...

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Movies

In the course of two days, I have watched 4 movies. That is what I do all day being pregnant and all. I have my nap in the afternoon and I watch movies on dvd and I also cook and write a lil.

Movie #1 : Juno
A story of a 16 year old that got pregnant and be cool about it. She got pregnant by her bestfriend and decides to keep it and give it away for adoption. But the couple that was to take her baby has got some marital problems of their own but ends up taking the baby altogether. Its a good movie although all you 16 years old out there... make sure ur not pregnant at that age. In our culture its not acceptable. But seeong that kid pregnant makes me smile jugak... : )

Movie #2 : Wild Child
A cliche movie about a teen that is how should i put it..?? Rebelious? Well.. I'll put is as that lah. She was angry at her father for finding a "replacement" of her dead mom and her father got angry with her and sent her off to boarding school in England. While in England... she tried her very best to get expelled instead she found out that she likes being there and to make a story.. that school was the same school her mother went to as a teen.. ( what a coincidence eyh?) Anyhow.. this story is simple and also very same like the rest.. more or less like all the teen movies that stars Lindsay Lohan in her early years.

Movie #3 : Friends with money
A story about four girlfriends, Olivia, Jane, Fanny and Christine. All in their late thirties and trying to figure out their lifes. But mostly the story is more focused on Olivia who between the four of them is the most unlucky one. She was a teacher that quits her job and become a maid to support her life. All her other friends are sympathetic towards her but is not doing anything to actually help her as they themsleves have got their own problems. Anyhow.. the story was a lil slow and I actually slept through it the first time I watched it yesterday. In the end, Olivia found a man that like her but also super rich. and there you have people.. a happy ending with the end line is " Everybody has got problems too".

Movie #4: Get Smart
I watched this movie because I wan bored. Not actually my cup of tea but at least its better than James Bond ( no offence JB fans.. ). Its a light comedy thingy with all the secret agent crap. I watched it pun because Anne Hathaway is in it and I sooooo love her in "The Devil Wears Prada". Anyhow.... thats all I can say about it because I was watching it while eating Pizza and doing my work at the same time.

So there you have it. My so-called-movie-review. *LOL*...
Well.. I'd better go. Need to finish up my synopsis.

BTW: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TINI

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